I am totally out of whack. I am completely lost in perception. I don't know why, or how I can allow my self to utterly lose my focus when trying to accomplish goals. Actually that's not the truth, actually I know exactly how, cause I constantly see myself do it, but I get this feeling of indifference that comes over me. Its come to the point where I am convinced that I cant finish something unless I see it through without interruption. I feel like if I where a recovering alcoholic that dying for a shot that he knows will send me into a tailspin.OK that was a last week I believe. Today I have a new view of the situation. Last weeks part has some relevancy to
today's topic but its just a small part. The first half of this year, my time was taken up by my desire to explore the spiritual side of my humanity. I did and still
don't know much about it for that matter but i made some significant strides. My mind was clear
, my heart was in the right place, my morals were unquestioned. Then little by little I came down from that cloud I was on. As the days went by, the desire to explore and search and the need to find what I sought slowly slipped through my minds fingers.
As the time passed I hardly noticed the changes taking place. I became complacent with my life and fell through the cracks. I
didn't even care to blog anymore and that had been one of my greatest outlets. A place to tell the world how Aldo Jose
Bendaña G
urdian M
onterey Lopez viewed the world! Its
ridiculous how people (me) can be on such a high about
something new in
their life and then just forget it altogether. Its actually sad, but enough of that sort of talk. I am on the road to recovery, (i am a drunk, J/K) and it starts today with this post. No more meaningless m
umbo jumbo. All I got left to say is Where my dogs at?!