Will Power, I summon thee!


What the hell is the deal with my will power. On a scale from 1 to 10, ten being the highest, I give myself a 3 which translates into Mierda (shit for the español challenged). Need to find the power to hold fast to my objectives!!! OK, from this moment, (mariana please dont start singing) I am going to Do it. I can effing do It!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Final Four

Well Gators & Gator Haters. We are back in the final four for the second consecutive years, in route to a possible repeat for the NCAA Mens Basketball Championship. If it comes to pass, it would be the first time in 15 years that a team has repeated as national champs. The last to do it was Duke in 91 & 92. I for one cant wait and am going to make the road trip to gainsville if we win. This team has impressed like I have never been impressed. Keep it up Gators.

Gators edge it out against Purdue. Thanks to the 13 straight shots that they made to finish off the game. Al Horford was huge at the end. Got to tip your hat to Purdue, they played thier hearts out, but after all it is a game against the champs, they are resilient and they find the ways to win.

Up next is the sweet sixteen matchup against the number 5 seeded Butler on friday. I think the Gators got a wake up call and will be firing on all cylinders. Go Gators!

March Madness Is Here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Go Gators!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its definitly one of those days

Where nothing seems to go right, and when something does go right, it still sucks.

I like the picture. Could you imagine seeing this on the news. That would be freaking awesome in a sad kind of way.

The movie 300 made me remeber my childhood in the sense that I had to fight wolves when i was nine. J/k I dreamed about it though. I wana be spartan!!!!!! Those guys rock!!!!!!!!!!!! No not USC just in case some joker decided to comment. W/e I am almost done with work. Yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The search for truth, is it a valid quest? Is it what we envision it to be? Is it whole hearted endeavor we partake to find our purpose in this world or is it a dillusion in our mind that we create to make us feel like if all our suffering wont be in vain and that there is some form of comfort ahead. What is truth? How can we define it? Who can say that thier definition truly defines the word. How can we KNOW truth?

Most of us adhere to some form of authority (social, spiritual, moral etc.)when it comes to the truth. These institutions of authority lay down their guidelines of how to live and act in order to find the truth they describe. But the question is do people really experience truth in this way? How can they, if they are taking the template from an experienced few and baseing thier morals and ideas around that. It creates a metal image of what they are trying to achieve. Well, my limited experience has taught me that truth is found in the experience. How do you describe the sensations you experience when you go to the ocean without having experienced them. How can you ever know what love is untill you experiences it personally. What is truth as experienced by me is not nessicarily truth to you.

Having made this point, why is it that we look to others experiences on subjects such as religion, society, and morality as guidelines to live by? They can give us the tools needed to experience the truth of what ever matter but we have to actually put for the effort to find our own experience of truth.

Its FRIDAY!!!

Hell yea baby! I love fridays, especially ones where the week has zoomed by and the weekend around the corner is do for a big bash!!! My roomates are leaving out of town and its fiesta (thats means party for all you spanish challeged people) time!!!

Peace

Just another day,

It started out OK and progressed to good. I guess all days are good, it ones attitude that ruins them. You never know what side of the bed your gonna get up from so I have learned to put my best foot forward when dealing with bad attitude on any given day. Enough of that preachy boring shit though.


Yesterday I had my second ass whooping in racquetball. Let me tell you that I definitely do not enjoy getting my ass handed to me in any activity, scrabble included (damn Mari-A-na)! But I will say that I really enjoy playing that game. It is so fast, and reaction time is crucial. Thank whom ever is responsible that I have cat like reflexes or I would be in an even worse situation. Its like dodge ball on roids but I get to slam the poop out of the ball with my stubby racket. The best is when we play doubles but before I describe that let me introduce the participants and background. Every Tuesday and Thursday of the week my cousin Miguel or Michele as i like to call him goes and plays with his two friends at Doral. They have very nice setup there and we exploite it to the max. Exploite sounds so bad but screw it.

I had not played since my long lost memory knows when and decided to partake and ended up being hooked. We started playing doubles and lets just say that the bodies were hitting the floor HARD! Any sport where you are dodgeing bodies and balls, colliding against walls, and slamming the crap out of balls that might or might not end up hitting someone in the (back, head, jewels, ass,) is a great time!

My knees are feeling it today though, I am sore as a w*ore! lol... sorry slipped out.

Gladly today is rest day. I am gona buy some epsom salt, and soak the pain away. Then sit and watch friday nights lights.

PS. Hey Marcy, Mike (Apocalypto) G got a "Volcano" I almost broke my rule on Monday for it but decided against it.

They call him apocalypto at work, guess why?

Weird Dreams May Come

My dreams have been pretty interesting lately, Most of them are a bit too nuts to write about and others just so vague, I remember how I felt very well, but as far as dream recollection is concerned I just blank out. But my pal David had an even crazier dream than any of my combined. He says he was visited by a friend of his that passed away in a motorcycle accident a couple years back. He thinks its cause he as passed by the area of the accident a couple of times this past month. He states that he is sure that he did not dream about him but that he came to visit in his dream. He also said that he asked his friend how heaven was but he forgot most of the dialogue except that his deceased friend told him that he would visit him once a month. Crazy huh...

Anybody have some interesting dreams that they have recently had?

Happy Valentines Day

everybody, but especially a special somebody.

Kill me now man, kill me now. I just don't get it. I just does not register. Its just not comprehensible. I will just leave it up to Spirit. I mean what else is there to do? There are some situations in life that you just don't get a bone thrown your way. Its just those Nolan Ryan type curve balls in the life of a human being. These are the times when you just entrust your life to spirit and have FAITH.

Faith, now that's a word I never really liked. Its a word I never got until I needed to get it. Faith to me was a last resort, that's how I learned it. Not to say that that's how faith is for everyone so don't rip me for it, just in case anyone was. Its just what my experience with it is.

Here's a little background information about me and faith (Faith and I). Faith was a word I could not stand, I guess its cause I did not understand what it meant or how it applied to me. All my life I heard the same the phrase, "You have to have FAITH," after every unanswerable religious question I asked to every person whether it was my mom, grandparents, Sunday school teacher, religion teacher, Marist brother (went to a Marist catholic high school), priest, even George Michael would not shut up about it. I always thought it was bullshit. How the *uck can you have faith in what you don't even know exists! Now I see that that's all you have when all other things have failed.

FAITH, FAITH, FAITH!

I HAVE FAITH!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK MAN.... ITS TAKEN ME 25 YEARS TO REALIZE THAT MYSELF AND THE REST OF US HAVE TO HAVE FAITH IN WHAT EVER YOU THINK ABOUT OR DO IN YOUR LIFE!

I have faith that everything will turn out fine in the end. That's it. Short simple and to the point. You cant evade the bad times cause like my friend Pamplona likes to say and quote (Kahlil Gibran), the bad times make the good times that much better or something along those lines.

The saboteur in all of us.




He lurks in the umbra of our thoughts, conspiring to overthrow the true insights of our soul.
He helps you connive at the selfish egocentric messages brought to light by his small mind.
He whole heartedly tries to convince you that things wont work, not to change, to give up when the going gets tough in order to keep you complacent, cowardly, comfortable and in ignorance as part of the herd.

RECOGNIZE his every whim siblings for he has the power to make man great but also the power to seal his fate.

My favorite type of class

The University of Florida football program is doing it again, as they stand, they are set to bring home the #1 recruting class for 2007. This would bring two straight #1 classes depending on which recruiting site you favor. We currently have commitments from the #5th, 9th, 12th and 28th top national prospects and still have the possibility of landing the #13th and 14th prospect. What does this all mean you ask? Well it means that the Urban revival in Gainsville is in full effect. If there still are any people that doubt Urban Meyer's ability to run a successful program then those people really dont know much about college football. This guy is fantastic when it comes to building a program the right way. He recruits like there is no tommorrow in a state that was formerly domminated by the University of Miami and the other school out in the north west (FSU). This year the fruit of this staffs labor is finally beginning to ripen as the gators domminated the state in recruiting. Our foot is well inside the door, and our cupboards are being stocked like if we shop at Costco.

Its a great time to be a Florida Fan, and just in case anyone was wondering, we are not taking frontrunners into our ranks.

Rediscovering life's path.

There have been times in my life when I felt all was well, where all my thoughts and actions flowed smoothly with the steady river that is the universe. No action could go wrong it seemed, no event seemed out of whack. Just smooth sailing as far as the ego less entity can see. Everything falls into place and the unknown is something that is beheld as exciting and not fearful. I feel as though there is a life path that everyone has laid for them but its not predetermined. Its more like following an Etch a Sketch point, the path behind is visable but the front is not yet determined, all you know is your on the right path and what comes is what you make of it.

The majority of this planets people are so in tuned with their everyday life that rediscovering this so called path is an huge endeavor. People need to match the attributes of "God", my god, their god, what ever they see god as. Like a wise teacher once said, " The Divine is the Sea. All religions are rivers leading to the sea. Some rivers wind a great deal. Why not go to the sea directly?" The label or name that they use for god may be different but its the same Source.

There are 7 attributes

1. Creativity: Creative expression, with out it there is no creation
   
2. Kindness: Acts of kindness extended, received or observed beneficially impacts the physical health and feelings of everyone involved. I know everyone can relate to this.
3. Love: "Love is our Highest word and a synonym for God" Ralph Waldo Emerson
4. Beauty: Beautiful thoughts create a beautiful soul. See beauty in all of Gods creations. A Creative kind, loving source can not create anything that is repulsive to itself.
5. Expansion: Life continues to expand, grow, evolved, thrive. Expanding creativity, kindness, love, and beauty.
6. Unlimited Abundance: It Never stops, endless. We are created by an endless energy (God), We are limitless in our potential. We WILL have all we will ever need and if we have an abundant point of view towards our life. We want to think about the abundance in our life in order to attract more of it. For god only knows abundance. Limited thoughts put a limit on you and create a block that keeps abundance (any type, love, money, etc.)
7. Receptivity: All are welcome, we all come from the same source, there is no exclusion. Being receptive to the endless abundance that is "God."
   

I find that the more I try to live up to these attributes, the more in tuned I feel with everything around me. Things just flow, if I need something and don't know where to start it just finds its way into my life. I love that.


Let spirit express itself through and for you. This leaves no room for Ego.

I will end this with another good qutoe

"The secret to manifesting anything that you desire is your willingness and your ability to realign yourself so that your inner world is in inner harmony with the power of intention" Dr. Wayne Dyer

F.Y.I. By power of intention he means God.

Distant Conversations

I dont know if it is just me or if everyone feels that long distance conversations just dont cut it. I feel so unsatisfied when everything is all said and done. The experience is nowhere near as rich and nourishing as it would be in person and you kind of yearn for that warmth that comes with the face to face, mano a mano experience. It seems so impersonal, so cold, so lackluster, so much like its just buisness, its just how it is type of feeling to it. To sum it all up its just plain old cold shit.

This is not to imply that the person on the other line is this way or makes it that way. Just need to make that CLEAR... I dont know enough about how it makes me feel, I could sit here and just think of words to express the sentiment that comes over me when I am dealing with the topic that we speack of. I am usually doing my best to keep myself upbeat about all things in my life but somthing I feel must be expressed if only to ease the discomfort.

Peace and love to all.

2006-2007 NATIONAL CHAMPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What! What was that! 82 TOTAL YARDS you say!!! OHIO STATE...THE Ohio State!?!?!?! It cant be, It couldnt be, IT IS Gator Hators!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Scoring Summary

FIRST QUARTER FLA OSU

TD 14:44 TED GINN JR. 93 YD KICK RETURN (AARON PETTREY KICK) 0 7

TD 10:31 DALLAS BAKER 14 YD PASS FROM CHRIS LEAK (CHRIS HETLAND KICK) Drive info: 7 plays, 46 yards. 7 7

TD 5:51 PERCY HARVIN 4 YD RUN (CHRIS HETLAND KICK) Drive info: 5 plays, 34 yards. 14 7

SECOND QUARTER FLA OSU

TD 14:56 DESHAWN WYNN 2 YD RUN (CHRIS HETLAND KICK) Drive info: 10 plays, 71 yards. 21 7

TD 13:32 ANTONIO PITTMAN 18 YD RUN (AARON PETTREY KICK) Drive info: 4 plays, 64 yards. 21 14
-------POINT OF NO RETURN FOR Overrated State University (OSU)------------------------------

FG 6:00 CHRIS HETLAND 42 YD FG Drive info: 9 plays, 32 yards. 24 14
FG 1:53 CHRIS HETLAND 40 YD FG Drive info: 4 plays, 6 yards. 27 14

TD 0:23 ANDRE CALDWELL 1 YD PASS FROM TIM TEBOW (CHRIS HETLAND KICK) Drive info: 3 plays, 5 yards. 34 14

FOURTH QUARTER FLA OSU

TD 10:20 TIM TEBOW 1 YD RUN (CHRIS HETLAND KICK) Drive info: 8 plays, 39 yards. 41 14

Time of my life. The time is now! Time is an illusion but the moment is now! The Moment is KEY! This Moment for me! The Moment to be all that I can Be. I leave you with a quote that really spoke to me.

“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”

Wise & Unwise

Doesn't anyone ever wonder why we (people) can be so wise and give such great advice that just seems to flow naturally from our minds, but when the script is flipped and we are the ones seeking advice we act like children lost in the airport. We cant help but feel helpless, desperate, and alone.

The answers and solutions that were once so accessible to us in our previous mental state are now nowhere to be found or are they? The funny/sad thing is that the answers are still right in front of us but we just don't see them, or is it that we don't want to see them.

It seems as though we are so much in denial that those answers become unacceptable and there for not possible answers anymore. Its incredible to me how that whole process works. Humans, we are complicated beings. Who DA thought?

The Cowboys get owned, i dont even want to say anymore. Wow we got exposed!

The Gator Side of the Story

I was gona write an entire analysis on the schedules, confrences, diffrenced between UF and UM but I ran into this article that pretty much sums it all up. Enjoy, and if your a Maize and Blue fan just let it go alreadly.