Kill me now man, kill me now. I just don't get it. I just does not register. Its just not comprehensible. I will just leave it up to Spirit. I mean what else is there to do? There are some situations in life that you just don't get a bone thrown your way. Its just those Nolan Ryan type curve balls in the life of a human being. These are the times when you just entrust your life to spirit and have FAITH.

Faith, now that's a word I never really liked. Its a word I never got until I needed to get it. Faith to me was a last resort, that's how I learned it. Not to say that that's how faith is for everyone so don't rip me for it, just in case anyone was. Its just what my experience with it is.

Here's a little background information about me and faith (Faith and I). Faith was a word I could not stand, I guess its cause I did not understand what it meant or how it applied to me. All my life I heard the same the phrase, "You have to have FAITH," after every unanswerable religious question I asked to every person whether it was my mom, grandparents, Sunday school teacher, religion teacher, Marist brother (went to a Marist catholic high school), priest, even George Michael would not shut up about it. I always thought it was bullshit. How the *uck can you have faith in what you don't even know exists! Now I see that that's all you have when all other things have failed.

FAITH, FAITH, FAITH!

I HAVE FAITH!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK MAN.... ITS TAKEN ME 25 YEARS TO REALIZE THAT MYSELF AND THE REST OF US HAVE TO HAVE FAITH IN WHAT EVER YOU THINK ABOUT OR DO IN YOUR LIFE!

I have faith that everything will turn out fine in the end. That's it. Short simple and to the point. You cant evade the bad times cause like my friend Pamplona likes to say and quote (Kahlil Gibran), the bad times make the good times that much better or something along those lines.