The worlds a funny place.

Its so, so, SO indescribable! It really is man. People like to describe it as cruel, big, mean, kind, grand, but its such a limiting view of this vast world. Its more like a description of it brought on by how they may be feeling at the moment. It can be all that you feel it to be if people (me included) let themselves blame it for all thier issues. I am alive, somtimes I forget what that feels like with all the responsibility one has on thier shoulder. Then we get a taste of that feeling again and are hooked to getting more. The only problem is that when we cant get more we feel down and out of it. Maybe its just me but i doubt it. I love to feel alive, when you can just be looking out your window and enjoying the sights, smells, sounds, etc of nature. When the sun hits your face and you feel blessed.

Not having that feeling or letting thoughts and emotions get in the way of that awareness of life is a crime or atleast thats what I have come to see it as. I really enjoy feeling alive and I have realized that it is not in what you do (surf, sky dive, white water rafting) but how your mental state is at any given moment. Somtimes thoughts and emotions get to me and create a mental wall that I must fight to break down. But once the Wall falls I can hear lifes calls.