Time of my life. The time is now! Time is an illusion but the moment is now! The Moment is KEY! This Moment for me! The Moment to be all that I can Be. I leave you with a quote that really spoke to me.

“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.”

Wise & Unwise

Doesn't anyone ever wonder why we (people) can be so wise and give such great advice that just seems to flow naturally from our minds, but when the script is flipped and we are the ones seeking advice we act like children lost in the airport. We cant help but feel helpless, desperate, and alone.

The answers and solutions that were once so accessible to us in our previous mental state are now nowhere to be found or are they? The funny/sad thing is that the answers are still right in front of us but we just don't see them, or is it that we don't want to see them.

It seems as though we are so much in denial that those answers become unacceptable and there for not possible answers anymore. Its incredible to me how that whole process works. Humans, we are complicated beings. Who DA thought?

The Cowboys get owned, i dont even want to say anymore. Wow we got exposed!

The Gator Side of the Story

I was gona write an entire analysis on the schedules, confrences, diffrenced between UF and UM but I ran into this article that pretty much sums it all up. Enjoy, and if your a Maize and Blue fan just let it go alreadly.

GATORS GET BID TO PLAY IN THE BCS CHAMPIONSHIP VS OHIO STATE!!!

The Stars haved aligned!!!

NFL new: Dallas takes control of the NFC East with today win over New York.

FINALLY!!!

The Florida Gators win their sixth SEC championship in grand fashion. This game was nuts, a hell of a performance by both teams. It was everything a championship game should be. I am very happy for the 21 seniors who found a way to win yet again. Gators finish the season 12-1 and await the BCS calculations that come out tomorrow. Its either UF or UM (Mich.) thats gonna meet Ohio State for the Title game.

I personally think that Michigan does not deserve to play due to thier loss to Ohio State. Give another team who has NOT lost to OSU a shot at it. Michigan had thier chance and came up short. It would be a crime not to allow the Gators to play, and prove again that the BCS system is flawed.

Enjoy the win Gator fans we deserve it for all those tough years under Zook.

Prediction: The stars will align and allow the Gators to take on OSU for the title.

Happy Turkey Weekend People!!!

I had a great thanks giving and hopefully all you peeps did as well. My flag football team swept through the competition going 3-0 to win the first annual Turkey Bowl beyotches!

On another bright note, the Dallas Cowboys clobbered the Tampa Bay Buccaneer's 38-10! Tony Romo had a career day, throwing for 5 touchdowns which ties Troy Aikman for the team record. He is not in bad company folks. This kid looks like the real deal and he ain't no shlameal!

My beloved Gators beat in state Rival FSU 21-14, in a game that was how you say??? shitty with respects to style points that are needed in todays college football in order to impress those medioits at ESPN to back a team. Someone please talk some sense into the NCAA and have them run a playoff! Stupid Analysts!

Last but not least, we finally finished moving to the new warehouse and we start working there on Monday. Its gonna be great compared to the shit hole we were in before. Cant wait!

All I need to finish this weekend of immaculate is for my Fantasy team to whoop up on my brothers team.

Cowboys Hogtie the Colts!!!

In what had to be the best defensive performance of the year, the Dallas Cowboys redeemed themselves after roughing up Payton Manning and the undefeated Colts. That Cowboys who's pass rush had been anemic through out the entire first half of the season, came alive. I was a bit concerned about the pass rush especially since the Cowboys had lost their best pass rusher Greg Ellis for the season due to a torn Achilles. Regardless of what we all thought, the replacements stepped up to give Manning a day to remember. Two sacks, two fumbles forced, 2 interceptions, one on the goaline and one returned for a touchdown by 2nd year linebacker Kevin Burnett.

Offensively it took the Boyz till the third quarter to get things figured out but once they did they got a handful of Julius Jones and MBIII. Give credit to what was though to be a horrible run defense for the Colts. The Stymied the Cowboys in the first half of play. Tony Romo has made me a believer, this kid can freaking play! He had an huge clutch drive at in the last two minutes to keep Payton and that offense off the field for the win. Very impressive win for the Cowboys!

Now if only the Gators would get some love from the BCS! Stupid ESPN analysts.

I am totally out of whack. I am completely lost in perception. I don't know why, or how I can allow my self to utterly lose my focus when trying to accomplish goals. Actually that's not the truth, actually I know exactly how, cause I constantly see myself do it, but I get this feeling of indifference that comes over me. Its come to the point where I am convinced that I cant finish something unless I see it through without interruption. I feel like if I where a recovering alcoholic that dying for a shot that he knows will send me into a tailspin.

OK that was a last week I believe. Today I have a new view of the situation. Last weeks part has some relevancy to today's topic but its just a small part. The first half of this year, my time was taken up by my desire to explore the spiritual side of my humanity. I did and still don't know much about it for that matter but i made some significant strides. My mind was clear, my heart was in the right place, my morals were unquestioned. Then little by little I came down from that cloud I was on. As the days went by, the desire to explore and search and the need to find what I sought slowly slipped through my minds fingers.

As the time passed I hardly noticed the changes taking place. I became complacent with my life and fell through the cracks. I didn't even care to blog anymore and that had been one of my greatest outlets. A place to tell the world how Aldo Jose Bendaña Gurdian Monterey Lopez viewed the world! Itsridiculous how people (me) can be on such a high about something new in their life and then just forget it altogether. Its actually sad, but enough of that sort of talk. I am on the road to recovery, (i am a drunk, J/K) and it starts today with this post. No more meaningless mumbo jumbo. All I got left to say is Where my dogs at?!

Peeved is the effing WORD for it.

You know what really irks me? Its when someone swears that you have or are doing something and you arent. No matter what you do or say its just pointless. This stupid post is pointless but it serves a purpose and that is to vent about some dope that doesnt get a clue. I really wish it didnt bother me so much, but its just so annoying. I have a good mind to not even post this crap but fuck it.

Hey guys, this is a new type of post for me, but I am always looking for ways to make money and I wanted to give Network Marketing a try. Usually in network marketing you have existing companies with existing products and the people who first start out with the company when the products are launched are the ones who benefit from the pyramid of distributors that forms, the higher you are on the pyramid, the more money you get. Well, I was stumling on Stumbleupon and I found a site called SenSatiaFriut.com. Its free to register which is the best part, and they give you your own copy of thier website. The more people who sign up free under your your website the better it is for you. I have not found the catch if there is one, but I would not be surprised if it popped up later, but its free for now so what do I have to lose. The product goes on sale in December of this year. This should be if nothing else an intresting experiment and learing experience.

The website can be reach on the Hyperlink above or at http://sensatiafruit.com/pre/ab060937.html

What a stupid line judge! If that dumb bastard had not been in the way of Roy Williams, he would have A)Knocked the crap out of Plaxico Burress or B) intercepted/broken up the touchdown pass.

I hate when officials get in the way. It should be a pentaly, It interference!


On a brighter note, the Parcells finally had enough of Bledsoes let downs. He has screwed up way to many times. No i am not talking about all the sacks but i am talking about his mental lapses. I am glad Romo has taken over. His mobility allows us to open up the offense and send more people out on routes. With Bledsoe imobility we had to keep Jason Witten in to help block. Now he can go out and make plays like he did last night in limited time. Romo brings a spark to the team. I think things will turn out alright now that we dont have a statue at quarterback. Go Romo.

Blows if you dont have the express pass, its lines are rediculously long, we were there from 4pm to about 12am and we only got to go on 3 effing rides. If anyone ever thinks of going to this crap, make sure you get the express pass, if not you are going to be DOOMED to walk like zombies in a fucking line all night. Even though we were unable to see all events, I managed to have a pretty decent time. Just remember that I dont recomend this shit if you dont have what? THE EXPRESS PASS!


I actually wanted to go to Howl-O-Scream in Busch Gardens, I hear its much better than Halloween Horror nights by a landslide. Wait till next year I guess. Marilona, I would have loved to have scared the shit out of you this weekend.

This is a post is dedicated to the great Bebuschka!

(Sorry if i mispelled your name wrong)

Her smile is real great, and shes a hell of a date.
Hope she takes the bait, but I dont think that will seal her fate.

She is very extrovered and just a tad perverted.

Some times she scratches me hard with her boot and it hurted.

She is very sweet, and if you show her some meat
by golly she will eat!

I like when she talks,
and the way she puts on my socks.

To sum it all up that girl is a FoX!

The Dallas Cowboys

Nuff said.

The Florida Gators look legit as they handle a solid Alabama team saturday afternoon. All season the gators have shown a toughness not seen around these parts since the days of The Ole ball coach (Steve Spurrier). The Crimson Tide opened up the game with a 10 point lead, but it was all down hill from thier as the gators rallied and romped thier way to an impressive win. Senior quaterback chris leak played his heart and had the longest run of his career to go along with two TD passes. Freshman sensation Tim Tebow show that he is not just a running quarterback by ziping a bullet pass to senior wideout Jamelle Cornelius for a crucial 3rd down conversion. Then in the fourth the game was put on ice by junior free safety Reggie Nelson, who I believe will win the Jim Thorpe award as the nations best defensive back. Nelson baited the young Alabama quarter back and then jumped the route to snag his 3 int of the year and returned it for a Touchdown. Plus the throw back uniforms the gators used were nice as f*ck.

Its great to be a FLORIDA GATOR,Its great to be a FLORIDA GATOR,Its great to be a FLORIDA GATOR!!!

Oh yea, the Cowboys rocked the socks off of the Tennessee Titans on Sunday 45-14. My boyz kicked ass. It was double sweet for me since i stared the dallas DEF in fantasy and they scored a TD. I also have Vanderjact who missed an easy chip shot from 26 yards out, but made up for it i guess by nailing a 43 yarder and 6 PAT's

How pathetic can this countries media get? Get of TO's case for gods sake. Its the most rediculous shit I have ever seen. Forget the fact that there are thousands of starving, homeless souls walking this countries streets. No, instead lets flock like vultures to a carcass and blow this guys stories way out of proportion becuase he is the one gets them the most exposure. Yes he is self-centered, yes he is probably selfish, yes he seems like a prick, but get over it. The guy takes some extra generic vicodin after a long day of practice and has an allergic reaction to when mixed with all the supplement the guy takes. His publisist comes in, sees him incoherent and calls 911. I would have done the same if I were her. She happens to say some dumb statment like he was depressed, they write up the police report that "somehow" gets leaked out and the circus is back in Dallas. Its freaking pathetic if you ask me. The media or medioits as I like to call them should all burn at the stake! Ok that was a bit too harsh, but really how stupid is that. Why not focus on the real problems facing society instead of streching the truth on an attention whore like Owens. Its shit like this that disgusts me man. I never want to be a celebrity, a better name for it is house arrest.

Once the rose is in full bloom the gardener need only admire from a distance.

"I recognize that pose
When you bloomed like a rose"

Logic

Logic is a very intresting subject to learn about. I know that in this world is its usually a good idea to be logical. Then there are other times were logic simply does not apply. Logic is defined as: the study of the rules of correct thinking. It concentrates on the principles that guide rational thought and discussion. The most fundamental concept in logic is that of an argument. An argument must be distinguished from "arguing", which is a debate or disagreement between different people. The logical concept of an argument is: a set of statements, one of which is the conclusion , the others are premises, and the premises support the conclusion. In other words, it is a statement along with the evidence that supports it. Now follow me on this one, how do you logically explain a concept like god, the universe, creation, transcendence etc. You can logically come to the conclusion that you just cant, atleast not untill we achieve higher states of consiousness where we are cabable of understanding those types of subjects in thier entirety. With this point made, I would like to ask a second question. Why do people who consider themselves to be very logical by nature (especially the ones who have taken philosophy) believe that all things can be explained through logic and find some insidious way of making an argument (a set of statements, one of which is the conclusion , the others are premises, and the premises support the conclusion.) into a never ending debate using hypothetical statments in the "Modus Ponens" style of deductive reasoning to state some asinine claim that they are correct becuase thier argument cannot be proven wrong?

Logic is flawed becuase it fails to completely describe the world, universe we exist in and I cant stand when people hide behind some stupid law of logic. If this world were logical by nature then I would have to agree with them. Through thier logical reasoning thier statments would be correct, but this world is not a logical world. Logic is just on part of an equation that no logic system or thought can ever hope to prove. I dont have a problem with people and thier opinions of anything but when you hear people say its correct because its logical, it just burst my bubble, just look at the cartoon above to show you what all this logical thinking leads us to.

Logic is good, but not when its being misused.

I read this and I kind of confused me a bit. if you have questions on it post them and i will try and explain. I dont feel like rewriting this thing.

A seed sprouts out as the moist earth awakens it into the world. Bright, warm and safe environment surrounds it. It grows strong and vibrant among its peers.

It begins to bud, at the same time, other plants around it begin to flower and it feels left out, an outcast. The world around it leaves it behind. No flower no power it believes putting to much emphasis on what it does not have. The other flowering plants ridcule it for not having anything to show. Little by little it loses its confidence.

Along comes the gardener, he feeds her, prunes her, fertelizes her, nurtures her, the plant grows stronger and strong. It feels better about itself because the gardener gives her so much attention. She starts to wonder why he does. For weeks he toils her soil, working, caring, shareing a part of himself with the little plant. Untill one day his dedication pays off, for he has the privilege of seeing her bloom in to the most beautiful flower he will ever see. He is taken back by the beauty he beholds. That tiny little seed had become a majestic rose.

He keeps coming back each day to behold her, and one day as he is handling her he pricks his finger on one of her thorns. Cause every rose has its thorns.

Which is the best way to learn? To learn from the mistakes of others or to find out the hard way. I perfer the hard way. Its harder as the name implies but I think the lesson sticks to you much more due to the burn it leave behind. Ain't it humorous that there are so many wise sayings (Dichos in spanish) that the world has to offer that have been passed down and learned from experience (the hard way), and yet there are very few who actually live by them and avoid getting burned. My mom would always tell us new ones since my brother and I were always screwing around and being mischvous. Example: Juego de manos es de vianos." My mother used this one alot since we were always fighting with each other and others. Its roughly translated as Hand games (hitting) are for not for the civilized, but the real meaning is pretty much lost in translation. I found this other one in english that I saw fit to share. Its sates, "Don't be afraid to take one large step because you can't cross a chasm in two small leaps." by David Lloyd George, British Prime Minister and statesman, (1863-1945).

There are many wise and knowlegable teachings in this world but its hard to grasp thier message if you have no background on them or have not gone through what they try to describe. I myself am at my best when relating past experiences to people who may be going through the same or similar situations, but there is also the side of me that takes in these ageless teachings and wonders what the hell they are refering to untill I finally experience it and say OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! You can try to do what you can to help others not make the same mistakes that you have made, much like parents try to shelter their kids too much, way too much sometimes. But in the the end you figure out that most things in life need to be learned through the mistakes and choices that transpire thourgh out your life. I thought the picture below says it all, since you can protect people from screwing up in thier lives, you can only serve as a warning of what can happen.

Its crazy how a little bit of kindness can go a long way. It does not matter if your world is crumbling all around you, one act of kindness can make all the diffrence in the world. It doesnt matter what you have done before or who you are. Kindness is contagious, there has never been a time when I have recieved an act of kindness and not felt warm all over. There has never been an occasion where being extending an act of kindness made me feel connected to the world. Its amazing how a simple act can have such a positive and long lasting effect. Like my friend Whore-Ratio (inside joke) reiterated in one of his previous posts, "you don't necessarily remember people, but you remember the way people made you feel."

I have never been real close to my grand father. We have a history of getting into arugments and being non-torlerant of each other. We care for each other greatly but always seem to bump heads no matter what. A couple of months back he had to undergo an operation for cancer and I called him after it to see how he was doing, I did this every other day for a couple of weeks. Those simple phone calls have done wonders for our relationship. I can tell that he really apprecatied it, and he tells me that as well. He has had a rough history and most of my family will tell you he can be impossible to deal with, but now I see that he just needs some kindness now and then to warm his heart. I still get into discussions with him over religion and stuff like that but it ends pretty well. He listens to my view point now, although he always says that I am incorrect but I digress. The point is that I have never enjoyed my Granddads company more. I have realized that he is a funny, clever, mischievous, and caring person.

Another person whom I have clashed with is my father. Me and my dad have butted heads more than anyone I have known. A simple acts of kindness turn him into a fun loving, happy, talkative, insightful, helpful, and understanding person. Helping him with the little things around the house and the dumb little chores that he asks is all it takes to turn him from angry, bitter, mean, to one of my best friends in the world. My dad is awsome, he has so many stories to tell, so much history, so much culture in him that he does not get to share when he is angry. Most people think he is very mean but thats cause they only see his bad side. He is a great guy.

My grand mother is in the hospital, she had a knee replacement done about a year ago, and last sunday as she was walking home from the Publix (supermarket) she slipped on some palm seeds that were scattered on the sidewalk and broke her femur (biggest bone in your body) right above the prostetic knee. The doctors feared that they might have to take it out but that God that they were able to set the bone and secure it without going removing the prostetic knee. Well, she puts on a good show for us, she says she is ok, and happy when we are around but I know she is suffering. She is my hero, she is so strong, I tell her she is as tough as a lioness. I call her in the mornings on my way to work and it lifts her spirts. You cant imagine how much a simple call to a loved one improves thier quality of life, atleast for a moment. Imagine what its like for a stranger to recieve that type of kindness from another stanger. Its one of the best feelings in the world.

I have made it a point to do as many acts of kindness as I can. Whether that be letting someone in to the car lane on at rush hour, or helping an old lady with her bags, or giving a person a ride when its raining, or giving someone a glass of water on a hot day etc. There are so many little things you can do through out your day to be kind. Kindness keeps this world from turning into a fucked up and cold place. (please excuse my french.)

Be kind everybody, pay it forward, that was a good movie by the way, I recomend it.

PS, I think the artist knows my grand ma cuase that her carrying that tea set.

Are we meant to live like machines? Do we have a set program that only tweaks itself when we learn somthing essential to our way of life. Have we become so automated in our behavior that we take for granted the wonderous things that are present in everday life? Its become apperent to me that we do, atleast most of us, present company included.

Most people have a set routine that they follow. Everyday is pretty much the same as the next, even weekends tend to become redundant. Frankly I am sick of that way of living. In my opinion, life is meant to be experienced, not ignored, but in most cases, thats exactly what we do. I realized this one day when I was having a conversation with my brother Luis. He and I were discussing life in general, how we are, how we see ourselves, what we want see ourselves become etc. I was telling him of how tired I was of doing the same shit every day, wake up, work, school, sleep. He responds by telling me that I already have a routine, and thats precisley what he wants to avoid the most. He said he has noticed other friends routines and that they complain that thier life has become monotonous. I could not agree with him more. Routines suck, there is no thought process behind them, so lifeless in a sense. I could walk by a tree grove everday on my way to school and think nothing of it, and then one day look up to see a Blue Jay(females are an ashy brown color by the way) feeding her chicks, or a iguana chaseing after an insect up one of the trunks. Whats my point? The point is that during my routine phaze I would have been oblivous to the richness of life around me. They would be just some group of trees with sounds coming from it. In other words eventless, boring, redundant walking to and from school.

Ask yourself whats more enjoyable, walking and experienceing the world around you or walking and neglecting the world around you? If your answer is experiencing then take a deep breath and enjoy every part of your day. For those who answered neglecting, (I hope no-one did) its time to get your oil changed.

Also, please observe a moment of silence of the lives lost in the attacks on 9/11.
And Pray for my Grandmother who was injured on a bad fall.

Whats up Peeps? Did you miss me?

Hey everybody, long time no talk. I have been pretty busy lately and finally found the time to post. Feels like if I have been in limbo for a little while. Well let me catch you up on the things on my mind.

• First, I take my mortage test some time next month, they have not sent me the date or location.
• Fantasy draft came and went. Headliners are Carson Palmer, Randy Moss, & Tiki Barber along with my pick for the #1 defense in the league this year the Dallas Cowboys.
  
• I opened a share account on sharebuilder.com to start learning to invest.
• Gators kick off the season on Saturday. They look like they can really do somthing this year. Heres crossing my fingers.
  
• This is my last week of non-activity due to a contusion on my left knee. This might be the thing i am most excited about.
  
• I realized that I will always stick by the people who have always stuck by me through it all.
• I have a renewed sense of family, especially for my grandparents. I am trying to enjoy thier presence in my life as long as possible.
  
• I miss the past but I need shades for the future for it looks blindingly bright.
  
• I know someone who is worth hoping for, she may not know it cuase i dont show it. Dont know if thats bad. But i feel good just knowing and interacting with that person.
• I have a deep desire to find out what makes me tick. Not what i want or how i am, but why and how i came to be the way i am. I have had some success in it but nowhere near finished.
• There is undeniable love in my heart for all, I want to express it better.
  
• I want to learn to distinguish better what I should share and what I should keep sacred to myself.
  
• I am incalculably more than just my flesh and bones.
  
• I feel like I dont know what I am doing most of the time, but I have noticed that when I listen to my innerself, that things work out for the best.
  
• I want to be 29's Crystal Baller.

Thats all I go today boys and girls. Shout out to all my friends blogging and non-blogging, Marianita, Ho, MoMo, Andre, Kathleen for all the insight they give. It may seem small but it all counts in my book.


God bless.

FOOTBALL SEASON IS AROUND THE CORNER!!!

Its that time of year again folks!!!!!!!! I cant wait, this is a big year for all my teams.
The Gators are in thier second season under Urban Meyer, and this is usually the season where Meyer lead teams start to tear it up offensivly.

The Dallas Cowboys are positioned to go deep into the playoffs with the aquisition of T.O. and a number of other players. The transition to the 3-4 defense has been completed. Look for DeMarcus Ware to terrorize NFL QBs.

Finally, is my fantasy football team which will once again dominate the opposition.

Football baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Random notes

1. Well I just got Direct TV installed over the weekend and it has transformed me into an over nite super couch potato. I love it and i hate it all at once. I love the fact that i will have all the football i can watch at my finger tips but at the same time i get so damn obsessed that i become pale due to insufficient sun exposure. I need to regulate this shit.Who am i kidding! Football!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!who who!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. Now, i am no my 2nd week of inactivity due to a minor injury on my left knee. I can stand sitting at home while everyone is out playing flag football, soccer, basketball etc. All i can do is sit on my ass and swim a little.
3. I feel kind of disconnected from the world lately. I am stuck in some type of dull existence at the moment but do not fear, i am currently clawing my way out.
   
4. I just signed up to take the mortage exam I have been planning to take since February.
   
5. I had a blast on friday nite at a b-day party held at a hotel penthouse. The girls who rented had like 4 ipods out on the counter for all to see and we had told them that it might be wise to put them away since they did not know all the people in the room. Then when one goes missing guess who the blamed? US?!?!?!?!!? incredible huh. But the funny thing is the way they went about confronting us. This one drunkard of a girl comes up to our group and starts saying " Ok, i just want it back, i will glady pay street price for it." Street Price, for a freaking ipod! she was saying it so much and since everyone was pretty hammered they did not make anything out of it, but i heard it for the 10 time, interuped the person who was talking to me and looked at her with a face i could only describe as a mixture astonishment and confusion and yelled out, "What the fuck is the street price of an ipod!?!?!??!!?!?!?!?!?!" After that little comment everyone started laughing cause they finally understood what was going on. It turns out one of her friends had put it away for her. We made a joke of it the rest of the night. Ahhh... Good times.
   
6. On a not so good note, i have been informed that my grammer is horrible. I will be making more of an effor to proof read my posts. Also if you find any errors correct me so i can continue my improvement. Happy mariana? J/k thanks is what i meant. The good thanks woman, not the sarcastic one! I know it will pop out of your mouth if i dont specify.
   
7. My fantasy draft is coming up on Aug. 27. Its a league of roughly 8 friends mixed in with 4 dumbasses who i am not fond off. But seeings as we all come from all that is i have accepted them into the group.
   entrance fee is $100 clams (flintstones reference) and it has gone up $25 every year. By the time we are all around fourty, i expect that we will be wagering a cool Million. Heres to dreaming big.
   
8. I finally finished the new rough draft of my resume, i think the info is all good, but i need to make it more appealing to the eye. I plan to then post it on monster and see what happens. Hopefully i get an offer from a great coroporation if there are any, and travel to some european country. that would be sweet.
   
9. I want to learn how to have OBE's
   

Word Verification is the way to go.


I have grow a bit tired of these darn computer generated comments so i have enabled word verification for comments. Sorry folks.

I Graduated!!!!!!! Now what?!?!?!?!?!

No I did not just graduate, thats my cousin Miguels weekend honor. I graduated this last December from Florida International University if anyone cares to know. The the reason for this post though came to me as i sat there in the O-Dome watching my cousin walk with his graduating class. It hit me that i have been to complacent and comforable with my life as it is and have only taken baby steps forward. I need to light a fire under my ass and get stuff going.

Ever since I left the structured time tables of highschool it has felt as if someone had the Tivo remote and was fastforwarding time in my life. Years are now nothing like i remeber them. They are like watching NASCARS zip by. It would frustrate me cause I felt like what i had accomplished in that year was not enough and I hate that feeling. Since then I have come up to an alternative way of judgeing my accoplishments and achievements as I grow older. Instead of judging year to year I decided I will Judge progress by 5 year intervles. I believe it will be a much better judge of where I am at the time, and it eliminates that pressure you feel as the year zips by. This Next year starts the 5 year cycle begining on Jan 1, 2007.

Goals I want to accomplish before the year is up are:

• Abtaining my Mortgage licence
  
• Openning a shareholders account to experiment & learn about the stockmarket.
• Recieve trainging in Kriya Yoga
  

What is up with all the violence in the world today?
just look at those ghetto ass chicks!

Even commercials are threating commercials

I can definitely see why people would want to give up and just say

but the truth is...

so sit back, relax, reflect, retool, respond & rebound.

Trapped...

Trapped...
I feel dead in the water when it comes to blogging these past couple of weeks, I dont know if its cause I am going through some challenges or mental stress. All I know is that I come to the dashboard and just draw a blank. It feels like my life has been put on hold for awhile. I am just so ??? This is the perfect description of me at the moment.

Watch out for the exploding trackable cash circulating the nation.


I just finished reading and article on the new dollar bills that have just recently come out. They are equiped with Radio Frequency Identification (RFID) tags. These are supposedly to protect us from conterfit operations and to track illegal money. But thats just to cover story. Try to imagine what other nifty ways our government can devise to use there new toys. I dont even what to think about it. Home of the free my behind. This is starting to look and feel like some crazy Sci-Fi Movie. We are stuck though since who knows whats for real and whats not. Anybody see the movie V for Vendetta. I kind of think thats were we are headed.

On a wierd and funny note, these bills seem to explode when microwaved. Imagine that we are just walking around minding our own buisness when all of a sudden your back pocket explodes. Not cool, not cool at all.

Dedicated to a dear friend.

My dear friend Mariana Kafart is leaving us for greener pastures in Washington DC. She has been accepted to a 1 year masters program at Georgetown University which begins on sometime next week. I wanted to take the time to thank her for her friendship and to let her know that we will all miss her while she is away. I am very pround of miss Khafart and pretty soon I will have to refer to her as Dr. Khafart. So my dear friend, farewell, good luck, live long and prosper, and above all, via con dios.

The Adam & Eve Theory

On my way home from work Friday afternoon I was lost in though about family and how amazing it is to be a kid. This is not due to the fact that they have no responsibilities and such, but because of how they are so captivated by the little things in life. They approch the world with these big fun loving eyes and enough curiosity to kill all nine of a cats lives. They dont care what they say or do, whether they may be naked or not, whether what they are doing is wrong or right. They are free to explore and learn and LIVE. At that same moment I was struck by a line in the song I was playing on the car stereo. The verse is highlighted in light blue.

MATISYAHU
"Time Of Your Song"

The world is moving to the song I hear,
Who's that singing, wind is rushing in my ear,
Mind gushing memories almost lost everything,
Felony and fellows running in my dream,
We were in the van where the hits were driving,
Saw myself In the highlands at age 13
And I'm asking questions to the present day me,
Moving backwards down the hill see we were posting.

[Chorus]
Moonlight illuminate my night and my days sunray make the people say
And a vision something's missing so they're screaming out loud
Keep my feet on ground and my head in the clouds.
I'm the arrow, you're my bow, shoot me forth and I will go
And I know and I go and I go get up and go
Make me feel its for real tell me what you know.

I don't need to glorify, Ate the apple of the tree and tried to lie, In the garden ill remember That's when I started to sing I said death brings life into uncertain things, Cut some slack for me Sun setting autumn breeze Sound is moving like a chorus Keep hearing that melody, Check the radio but theres nothing playing, Check the radio again but theres nothing playing.
[Chorus]

Rewind:

Dub-wise!

Swing low, sweet chariot of flames
Change my name, Yo!
It Was always the same,
Till if only what you find when you climb,
Check the radio but of all that shines there's no time,
My life is making your mind work in overtime,
But along the line you'll have to pay for the crime.
Slow it down You turbo too soon,
Vroom vroom then you want to blast off unto the moon,
But you might get trapped in a temple of doom,
You might get trapped in a temple of doom.

[Chorus]

"Ate the apple of the tree and tried to lie." Then BOOM! It hit me, and this might seem like a insignificant view to some, but to me it made things clearer. Kids remind me of Adam and Eve B.E.F or (Before Eating the Fruit). Think about it, they did not care that they were naked, they did not feel ashamed for what they did. They just were. As soon as they bit into the fruit they realize that they are naked and became ashamed, they are no longer comfortable in their own skin, they are afraid, they hid from God! Now we dont really have a literal forbiden fruit in our times so it must be somthing equivalent to it. Kids lose thier innocence at a certain age and thier societal & cultural conditioning takes over.

So then I thought to myself, maybe original sin is not bestowed upon us directly after birth, but that we are allowed to experience the garden of Eden as children. Followed by the equivalent of eating the fruit which forces us to exit it. I can no longer see children the same light, they see life the way I would like too. One day, I hope that I will once again knock on the door to paradise and be allowed in.

End of days or Begining of a new era in human evolution?

Has anyone noticed how in the last 10 years, more and more poeple have started to believe that we are close to the end of days, armageddon, judgment day or what ever else people wish to call it? It has come to the point where I belive that a good 60-70% of the people I have encountred believe so. Its pretty disturbing if you ask me.

Do they all sense somthing? Do we all sense something and maybe have not come to terms with it? I have no clue but as I was thinking about it the other day, I could not help but feel somthing leading me to believe that there might be.

I remeber that not to long ago, if and when the end of the world question was brought up, people would automatically consider you a bit loony. Now the roles are somewhat reversed. Could it be that we are close to some type of world changing event or is it all in our heads? Thats the question that has me a bit befuddled. I feel like there is somthing coming, but it could be a hugh positive change in the world and not exactly world ending event. Maybe its the time for a new evolution in mankind. I would rather think that we are ready for a shift into new ways of being, than to think of it as the end of all. Imagine that we make a leap in consiousness to i higher plane and end all the segregation in the world. No diffrent religions, governments, etc. Just one unified planet of earthlings who realize the great need to take care of the world we live in because it is us. I reminds me of John Lennons song "Imagine".

The lyrics are below.

Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one


But like most things unknown, your guess is as good as mine. If anyone has some extra info they would like to share, please do so. Also if you have also noticed the change in peoples views on the subject please state it.

Just some bumps in the road.

Some days are a joy to live, some days make my soul not want to give.

Some days you might have many friends, somedays are a means to an end.

Living life's path one bump at a time, will culminate in a journy which turned out sublime.

This is my favorite pussy...Meowser

This little guy which has grown into a big fat pussy cat, is a huge stress relief in my life. I sit in the tiki hut in my back yard and watch him chase lizards, climb trees, play with his tail, etc. He is hilarious and always puts a smile on my face. This pic was taken on the date above, about 6 days after I found him abandoned in a McDonalds parking lot. I had lost my other cat Goku a couple months back and one day I found myself in the parking lot of that MickeyD's and herd a soft hungry meow... I moved aside the branch of a bush and there he was. Just about two weeks new. He has been meowing ever since and never stops, hence the name Meowser.

Hey Blog world! I will be out for a couple days and just wanted to spare you guys the trouble of coming to check out new posts when none will come.

I know...
I Know...

You guys cant get by with out my posts but it will only be for a short while.




PS. If you guys did not catch the sarcasm then i am flat out telling you that it was just that. Working on a couple things that will keep me very busy for a little while so , i leave you with that. Hope all of you are well and continue to do well.


Aldo

Stuck between a rock and a hard place...

How do you tell what is the right thing to do when there is no distigusihably bad charactersistics in the choices at hand? Thats my million dollar question for this week. I really dont know... Usually there is somthing tugging at my soul leading me on to the correct path, but now I have come to a fork in the road with two identical paths. Normaly I would go the Robert Frost way and take the one less traveled by, but whats the deal when they both appear the same? How do you advance? Is it merely left up to a guess or guesstimate? I dont want to accept that... Has anyone come across this type of predicament? If so share with me, for I am stumped at the moment. I may have done something that could either be a step back from my previous position or a blessing in disguise. I dont know and it is somthing that has eaten at me all day. I just dont know, the signs point to nothing. I have asked gods help and he usually answers in some obscure way that I manage to catch and relate to the topic for which the help was pertaining to, but I dont think I got his last memo. Fellow bloggers, share your views with me if you've got them. Thanks again...
Jah Bless

A forgotten way...

I have just recently come across a book titled "The Lakota Way: Stories and lessons for living" By Joseph M. Marshall. In the beinging I did not know what to think other than the native american way of life was somthing I really wanted to understand. Right of the bat, the author thouroughly explains this intentions and reasons for writing the book. He has put togther a collection of stories that have been passed down from generation to generation, that sort of remind me of their version of asops fables. These stories are passed down from tribe elders to the younger members of the tribe to instill the moral values nessesary to the lakota way of life. I have read through six chapters and have been blown away by the power and insight behind these stories. I would go as far to say that these are some of the best tales I have ever heard in my life, and each one has an important lesson behind it. This is an incredible book and I recomend that the world read it. For if we could instill some of these values into main stream socities, the world would be a much better place. An amazing book and I am not even done.

Tuning into my spirituality

I have come to the realization that there are two parts to each human being. One is the physical part which we are all very familiar with. The other being the spiritual side which happens to be a HUGE question mark for most if not all people. I know we all have a spiritual body or soul if you will. So why is that part of humanity forgotten and/or ignored? I dont know? I figure that we are running at half capacity due to this.

Armed with this new outlook, I decided that I would search for this missing piece of my existence and it has shown me to alot of different views on the subject. The funny thing is that most if not all these views share some type of common characteristcs. They are somehow linked as if by coinsidence. Now like I stated on one of my earlier post, I dont believe in coinsidences. Life throws opportunites at you all the time. For example, Your friend calls you to go to some party and you have no plans or previous engagments, here lies your first choice. You can either choose to be boring and stay home and hope that something unexpected happens at home (which never really does). Or you could choose to go, hang out with some friends and then by some "coinsidence" you meet someone like in that corny Dockers San Fransico commercial where the woman nails the waiter and etc. First off, it was not a coinsidence that you decided to go to the party and ended up meeting that person, it was you taking an opportunity give to you by life, god, etc. and you took advantage off it. Its as simple as that. Things happen for a reason. The example I gave is just that, an example, it can be any type of oportunity. We have all gone through it, any time when we were so glad that we went through with something that we were unsure of, and it turned out great.

Now for those thinking that god is my missing piece, you are right but your missing my point. I know that God is the missing piece, but I am not satisfied with the way the world interprets or understands God. I want to fully exerience God and I dont think i can do it by just accepting that there is a god and going to some church. There are acient and lost practices that are capable of helping us experience god fully. Teachings that world in general does not know about or has forgotten. I plan on rediscovering them


Now back to my sprituality topic. All these opportunites or coinsidences as most would call them, are constantly poping up. They have been pushing me further down this road in search of the truth or enlightenment. I believe we are all capable of this feat, we just got to want it, and today in age, that type of thought is in the minority. Sad but true, sad but true...

Here are a list of a few of the things that i have stumbled on,

* Meditation
* Chakras
* Flower of life
* Egypt
* StoneHenge
* Sphinx
* Atlantis
* Merkaba field
* Christ Grid
* Chakra music
* Indigo children = which i believe are key to turing this world around.

Some of these things we are familiar with, but just knowing what they look like is not everything. For example Stonehenge is not just some temple of the durids. Its a temple for the sun, its the reason for its construction. Every year on the summer solstice which just passed on June 20, there are celebrations held there. The location is the key to stonehenge. At the main opening to the monument is a large stone called the heel stone. On the summer solstice the sun rises on the point of the heel stone shown below. It was argued that the summer solstice alignment cannot be accidental. The sun rises in different directions in different geographical latitudes. For the alignment to be correct, it must have been calculated precisely for Stonehenge's latitude of 51° 11'. The alignment, therefore, must have been fundamental to the design and placement of Stonehenge. The alignment also made it clear that whoever built Stonehenge had precise astronomical knowledge of the path of the sun and, moreover, must have known before construction began precisely where the sun rose at dawn on midsummer's morning while standing on the future site of the monument. This point needs to be made because, as I suspect, with Stonehenge and many other such monuments, it was the site, a particular place within the landscape, that was important; only later were these sites marked in some more permanent manner by the digging of ditches and banks and (or instead) the erection of wood or stone structures. It also doubles as an eclipse calculator for both solar and lunar eclipses. This is linked to the christ grid because its a location on earth where grid lines pass through.

Picture of the sun on top of the heel stone during the summer solstice.

Ok i have bored you guys enough with my history lesson but the point is that the more things i stumble upon the clearer the picture gets. How does this relate to spirituality, well acient people have an acient wisdom which has saddly been lost to humanity in modern times. I think that there is a way to tap into that collective universal knowledge, we just need to find the key. That key is somewhere on this planet, i dont know who, where or what it is but i am conviced that i will fined it. If this does not make sense, then consider it a rant, but if it hits home, join the club and help us find that key...

My Kryptonite

I have an personal issue I want to address. Its a behavior that tends to come out when I am frustrated and feel supressed. I become my alter ego called Darko. It usually comes out when I am speaking with someone on a serious note and I can express myself to that person. Here is the process of the transformation. Its my pet peeve so to speak.

1. I am giving my point of view to the person so they understand were I am coming from.
2. That person questions my point.
   
3. I cant or am not permitted to express myself due to constant interuption = kryptonite
   
4. Aldo is gone, Darko takes over.
   
5. I get loud, aggressive, and tend to act like a little bitch.

The point of this little glimps into my nature is to point it out to myself and find ways of getting my point across without turing to the dark side. The problem is that I dont realize it when its happening and then its to late. You could say it my Kryptonite.All my life I have had problems due to it and I want it to end. Its unacceptable for me to act that way. I tend to look for all the excuses in the world but thats not the right way to go about it. Most of the fights I have had with family, friends and ex-girlfriends have been directly related to this. Its the part of myself I dislike the most.

Any opinions and/or suggestions on how you guys deal with this issue are welcome. For all you fu*ks that have seen this side of me up close can go "bleep yourselves!"

PS. Sorry, that last sentence was Darko... For all you guys that have seen this side of me up close bear with me. Its a work in progress.

Thanks to Mariana for pointing out this link. I think it does a better job of explaining what the real issue is. Lack of communication


Aldo

USA SOCCER BLOWS!!!!!!!!

3/4 of the blame is on them and 1/4 of it is the horrible officiating we have witness in this world cup.
USA

Cons:

• Slopply passing
• No first step
• Very bad ball control
  
• Poor dribbling
• poor midfield play
• HORRIBLE COACHING
• No defensive presence
• Pathetic effort!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lesson of the World Cup: We are not ready to be talking smack.

HEAT BABY!!! 2006 NBA CHAMPS!!!