I wonder why these quotes fall on deaf ears.

What a great advantage for leaders that the people do not think - Adolf Hitler

The most powerful tool in the hand of the oppressor is the mind of the oppressed - Stephen Biko (murdered South African activist)

The elementary principle of all deception is to attract the enemy’s attention to what you wish him to see & to distract his attention from what you so not wish him to see - General Sir Archibald Wavel

I guess the last quote answers my question.

Quotation on display

Just look at us. Everything is backwards. Everything is upside down. Doctors destroy health, lawyers destroy justice, universities destroy knowledge, governments destroy freedom, the major media destroy information, religion destroys spirituality.



Dr. Michael Ellner
Certified Hypnotherapist

A message to TURK

WHY DO I THINK, SAY, AND ACT HOW I DO YOU ASK?


INDEPENDENCE...

FREEING OTHERS FROM THE SLAVERY TO MY EMPTINESS AND NEED.

WHEN I AM NO LONGER EMOTIONALLY AFFECTED, NEGATIVELY OR POSITIVELY BY WHAT ANOTHER DOES, SAYS, & THINKS ABOUT ME.



DO YOU STILL REMEMBER WHAT I SAID THAT DAY WE ROLLED IN MY ROOM? I STILL HOLD THAT SENTIMENT TO BE TRUE. ALWAYS WILL.

Dont want to be part of the herd, THEN WISE UP!

Deliberately create problems, and then offer only those solutions which result in the expansion of government. Create conditions so frightful at home and abroad that the abandonment of personal liberties and national sovereignty will appear as a reasonable price for a return to domestic tranquility and world peace.

G. Edward Griffin.


This is no joke folks, your country is becoming or already is a police state. They (The Hidden Elite) are setting this country up for a big fall. They stay hidden cause if we find out who they are they would be ass raped! If you take a gander at the Constitution and read through it again, you will notice that the government we have in power now is exactly what the constitution was created to prevent against.


Don't give in to fear tactics, they are just used to set you up so you can give up your rights and liberties. More info here.

TEBOW WINS THE HEISMAN

A sobotage from within.

Check out this video ladies and gents, boys and girls. Its entitled 2012 The Future of Mankind. I am not a conspiracy theorist but this stuff is mind blowing and in plain sight. Its incredible how disinformation has crippled us and made us skeptical of anything and anyone who questions today's authority.

Heisman Ballot

1st: Tim Tebow - QB - FLORIDA (with help from his PR lady)

2nd: Darren Mcfadden - RB - ARKANSAS

3rd: Dennis Dixon - QB - OREGON

4th: Colt Brennan - QB - HAWAII

UPDATE: Tebow won the Davey O’Brien and Maxwell Awards. Tebow was also selected the quarterback for the Walter Camp All-American Team.

BCS stands for Bullshit Computer System

Wow!!! How does Ohio State end up in the BCS championship game, who have they played? What have they done? I will tell you what they have done, they lost to Illinois! The Zooker has that team playing well and is turning that program around but come on man. This system is flawed! why does division II & III have a playoff system but division I does not? I cant stand this system of letting sports writers and mediots (most of which have never played a down of college ball) be responsible for choosing who deserves to play for the tittle. Its ridiculous to have anything but a playoff system where the only thing dictating who goes to the championship game are the teams themselves and how they play. Give them the playoffs these teams want and deserve.

Ancient Wisdom

I love learning about ancient great civilizations. I love reading about their culture, history, sciences, spirituality, pretty much everything. I have always wondered how they became so advanced in their mastery of time, astrology, mathematics, physics and so on. The same goes for the civilizations in Egypt, India and the Orient.

I believe these people had insights long forgotten by the modern world. Ancient teachings that would benefit all aspects of modern life. Sadly all or most information like this is seen as bullarcky.

Haven't you always felt like there is something more to life, than the usual adult routine. Yes we work hard to provide for ourselves and our families but is that all our life is meant for. Work, Play, Eat, Sleep, Repeat. I don't know about you guys but I don't want my life to sound like the instructions on the back of a shampoo bottle.

Keeping the mind open to all things available to me is a big thing for me. I hope to continue my search for knowledge and wisdom that is rooted deep within. Its a feeling that stimulates me to keep at it, find it, my purpose. Its close i can feel it.

Is a wedding all its cracked up to be?

I don't think so, personally I lean towards the side that states that most people get hitch just cause they feel the pressures of society. I have finished college, got a good job, whats next? Oh, its marriage. Are you kidding me!?!?! That might be the stupidest ever.

I know you guys are wondering why this topic, well its because i just came from a wedding this weekend. It was my childhood friends time to tie the knot. He meets all the requirements about. Graduated, has a promising career (Police Officer), why not get married is what he made me feel was his reasoning. I made sure to ask him if he was sure with his decision as all good friends MUST do for their fellow gender. You don't want them committing a silly "I am an adult now so I can make these types of decisions" mistake. In his case, I wish him the best, he married his high school sweet heart, Awwwww, I know, clinches sicken me too. She is a good girl, smart, attractive, funny, sarcastic as they come. They definitely have their shit together, they just purchased a house and are all set to move in very soon. I am guessing they will throw a huge house warming party but I digress.

Back to the point, It just feels as if society has taken a larger role in peoples life, setting standards and peer pressuring people to take the next step. I am assuming that this is one of the main reasons why we have such a high divorce rate. People don't put enough thought into this type of life altering decision. It scares the bleep out of me, especially after the wedding. I walked into that church and my stomach turned inside out. I was thinking " I cant do this and I am just the best man!" Imagine the GROOM! That some crazy as bleep man!

I want companionship with a wonderful woman, I want someone to spend and share my soul with but I also want to go out, live, be single, mingle, travel, be reckless at times, have no one to hold me back from doing what ever comes up. No thinking, " Man, I want to go to (fill in the place) but I don't know if (fill in the name)is going to mind." Believe it or not, that thought is a holding you back thought. Bottom line is if your not ready to completely commit to something don't commit. Simple as that.

I know this from personal experiences.

Seed for Though:
We become whole, healed, by making the invisible visible and bringing the darkness to light. From the time we were children, we have been conditioned to put forth our best foot and face forward. We have been shamed when our behavior was less than perfect or we seemed greedy, arrogant, or otherwise naughty. Everything "not good" got shoved into the cellar of the personal unconscious. Jung called it the shadow. It is the alter ego that plays Hyde to our Jekyll. Hedge all you want, but it's in there, stuffed with everything that you deny, hate and disavow. The shadow is your evil twin.

Romo Rocks

I know its very early in the season but the Cowboys have me as happy as a fat kid in an candy shop. Tony Romo is the REAL deal! He was Phenomenal! I thought something horrible was gonna happen on each and every play and every time he amazingly continued to make plays. Its like he has spider sense in the pocket. The so called experts swore that he could not keep up his level of play against the mighty Chicago DEF and they were right, until the beginning of the second quarter. Dallas realized that they needed to soften up that Bears defensive front and started to pass like crazy. It seemed as if Mike Martz had taken control of the offense and started to shred the Bear secondary. Romo ability to buy time and escape pressure combined with skill of pro bowlers Jason Witten and TO was sight to behold. The defense also stepped up big time with 3 turnovers and 3 sacks. Then Marion the Barbarian as TO calls him just hammered it shut with his 54 yard run in the fourth quarter. He punched it in one play later.

The Cowboys are doing great, but they need to take these next to games very seriously against two of the NFL's worst teams so far if they want to be ready for the real test come week 6 when the Patriots come to town. I cant wait!

Strong Emotions

Yesterday I was overwhelmed with thoughts and worries about the near future. The feelings came on strong and randomly. I was just watching TV and boom it hit me like a ton of bricks. Normally I don't worry about the future and try to live in the present, but yesterday was different, the effects were strong, and very unnerving.

I get those feelings every once in a while, but cant figure out what the right course of action could be.

• Is it a sign, trying to tell me that I need to act now on something? (i.e.) Career move.
• Is it an impulse I am receiving from the cosmos, trying to mess with my harmony?
• Is it telling me that I should go back to school for my Masters?
  
• It could be anything and thats the problem.

I am leaning towards bullet point numbers 1 &3 but I am just not sure. Its not like if I am on a one way street here as far as careers are concerned, i have plenty of main streets to choose from to get to the destination or destiny, but I find myself taking the backstreet's for some reason. That reason being that its just less hectic.
I don't like that reason though, I don't like it one bit, but I don't think I will change my route until I find type of work that I can really see myself enjoying.

I feel as if there is another being in me trying to breakout.

Florida vs Tennessee highlights

Check out my boy Percy Harvin and the gang.

Its Timmy Time!!!

Tebow is the man. One fan goes on to say that "Tebow's football helmet wears Tim Tebow for protection." It may seem like an absurd comment but you would think twice once you what this kid play. Here are some more funny quotes.

• Tim Tebow and Chuck Norris once squared off. The fight lasted for 4 years, then Tebow realized that he was actually in a fight. He immediately stiff armed Chuck Norris upon this realization. This event is referred to as the "Big Bang"
• Tim Tebow saved the manatees. Then he stiff armed them back on the endangered species list so they wouldnt get cocky.
• SuperMan wears Tim Tebow Pajamas.
• Tim Tebow counted to infinity - twice.
• When the Boogeyman goes to sleep every night he checks his closet for Tim Tebow
• Tim Tebow built a time machine and went back in time to stop the JFK assassination. As Oswald shot, Tebow met all three bullets with his stiff arm, deflecting them. JFK's head exploded out of sheer amazement.
• Tim Tebow can touch MC Hammer.
• At birth, Tim Tebow came out arms first so he could stiff arm the doctor in the face. Nobody delivers Tim Tebow but Tim Tebow. This one is one of my favorites
  
• Tim Tebow frequently donates blood to the Red Cross. Just never his own.
• Tim Tebow sleeps with a night light. Not because Tim Tebow is afraid of the dark, but the dark is afraid of Tim Tebow. This one too.

Thats just a sampling of whats out their as far as Tebow Folklore.

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Confirmation is a rite in many Christian Churches.

Roman Catholics, Eastern Orthodox, Oriental Orthodox Churches, and Anglicans, view it as a sacrament, which in the East is conferred on infants immediately after baptism, but in the West is usually administered later at the age of reason or in early adolescence.

According to canon law for the Latin or Western Catholic Church, the sacrament is to be conferred on the faithful at about the age of discretion (generally taken to be about 7), unless the Episcopal Conference has decided on a different age, or there is danger of death or, in the judgement of the minister, a grave reason suggests otherwise (canon 891 of the Code of Canon Law). The number of Episcopal Conferences that have set a later age, usually between 14 and 16 years of age, has diminished in recent decades, and even in those countries a bishop may not refuse to confer the sacrament on younger children who request it, provided they are baptized, have the use of reason, are suitably instructed and are properly disposed and able to renew the baptismal promises (letter of the Congregation for Divine Worship and the Discipline of the Sacraments published in its 1999 bulletin, pages 537-540).

Thats a reference from wikipedia.

I just had a argument with my mother about the sacrament of confirmation. My view is that I was forced into it at the age of 16 in middle school. Confirmation to me is a personal choice to be faithful to that religion or belief system. But my mother saw it as her duty to force it upon me and that if she had a chance to do it all over again she would force me again. This pissed me off allot to be completely honest. I tried to explain my view on the subject and my belief that all religious belief systems are subject to interpretation. She had non of it. She admitted that she had doubts about things but that she gave no mind to them out of fear of being unfaithful. I find that to be cowardly. Its fine for anyone to believe things if people feel that resonates in them as truth, but to have doubt and still believe blindly out of fear really bothers me, especially if it affects me. It just does not register with me. I am the type of person that takes what they hear and really asks myself if that holds any truth to me. It has nothing to do with any man-run institutions preaching. Fuck that, and for all those who think I am being disrespectful to your faith, well I apologize but fuck that. I will not sit here and listen to someone or some institution tell me whats the right and wrong way to think and believe. That not to say that I don't think that the moral values taught by the church are wrong. I think they are good teachings. I just don't feel like I have to have guidelines on how to give thanks to our creator. I don't think that I have to feel inferior to the son of God Jesus. I feel as if he was metaphorically speaking the confident Quarterback=(Enlightened son of God) of a disheartened team=(The People) that came in against the best team in the league and provided the motivation and confidence that we could all achieve victory = (enlightenment just like he had.)

Whats wrong with that. I am not making myself out to be on par with God! All I am saying that if God were a brown paper bag, I would be a piece of that paper bag that was riped off, Jesus would be a bigger piece of that paper bag, meaning that he was at a higher level of consciousness, but in the end when the paper bang was repaired we would all be one and the same. Part of all that is. No superior, no inferior, just one with all that is.

I STARTED LMAO

WHEN I SAW THIS PIC...

LOL!

I WONDER WHAT THEY WILL COME UP WITH NEXT.


OH WAIT, THEY CAME UP WITH THIS CLASSIC.

Not that its a big deal since EVERY team in the league does it. I just think they don't do it as blatantly as Mr. Belichick and his minions.

The Moon

We are now in the New Moon Phase. Last moon on this pick that looks pitch black.

Back in the ancient times when people lived in accordance to the natural cycles of earth, the new moon was seen as a fresh start. Its the beginning of a new lunar cycle. Key words associated with this lunar phase are: beginning, birth, emergence, projection, clarity. A time to begin anew, to put new plans & goals into action. During this phase, plans & actions should be seeded by your inner and outer vision. Visualize your goals for this 29.6 day cycle ahead. Spend some time alone in introspection, engage in physical activity.

Everyone knows that the moon influences the tides as it rises. That's why we get the very high tides during full & new moons. Lunar gravity is acting on the earth and affecting the tides with its pull, but unless your a gardener you would not know that it also affects the underground water tables. So if you plant when it is rising towards the full status, the water table rises as well, and makes water more easily available to the new plant. During the new moon it is a good idea to plant leaf crops with the seeds on the outside of the plant, such as broccoli, lettuce, and grains.

It is remarkable to me how much information is out there about the nature of our planet and the forces that impact it and how irrelevant this information is to the general public. As I continue to learn these treasured nuggets of information I will make it a point to share it with you all.

A moment of prayer for all those who lost thier lives to Hurricane Felix.

I have been through some tough storms in my lifetime, Andrew in 1992 and recently Wilma and Katrina. Each and every time we took all the precautionary measures and prepared with the early warning from our national hurricane center. The poor laborers and fishermen that live on remote coastlines that were struck by Felix were not so lucky. I figure if you are a fisherman you would discern that there is bad weather on the horizon but some of these people live of their daily catch. My heart goes out to all those families who have lost love ones. God bless you.

Its Here!!!!

Football season is here at last! Thank the powers that be baby!!!

I love this time of year for two simple reasons, three if you count fantasy football. The other two being college football and the NFL kickoff. Its such a long wait for the start of the season but once college has kicked of you start to get that tingle in your head cause the NFL is just around the corner. Well, I am traveling at 200mph and that corner is here today!

The Gators are of to a good start. The offense looks like its ready to roll but that inexperienced defense has me a bit preoccupied. They need to mature real quick if they want to reach Atlanta this year.

The Cowboys are poised to to have a playoff run this year. Romo is in his first year as the opening day starter and he as an arsenal of weapons at his disposal.

This is gonna be a good year.

It gets me by the balls.

That default behavior that kicks in when certain criteria are met. Its when you start to act like they say you act, but always denying that you act that way type of behavior. Shit dude, what is it that keeps me from correcting behavior like this?! I don't want to fall back on old habits and routines. Its just not what I want. I feel as if I know what it is I have to do but its just not that simple when action is called for. The worse part about this issue is that it mostly happens with people that I really enjoy. That lack of patience that is present when two people are accustomed to being aground each other way to much and clash for everything and nothing all the time. I always end up falling into that self imposed trap, do, feel or say things I shouldn't be, and feel bad about it when I think of it in retrospect.

Update:
I almost feel mad at it. Really mad, its disturbing to feel like this. It almost makes me not want anything with anyone. When I am feeling like this, it seems that every thought, every instance of remembrance is a trigger of bitterness. Sometimes I don't know how to get it out. I used to blog more but its lost its luster a bit. It feels like if a drastic change is what is needed. Then I feel like if I know how that road ends. It ends ugly. I need a drink.

Its been long time

Miss this blog man. Been so caught up in my life that I have been ignoring my need to express myself creativly. This blog is just one of the ways I do that. The others would include sketching & photography. Lost in the wind or should I say spreading my sails and letting it take me where ever I may end up. Many of my views have changed and my plans are not as concrete as they once were. People, places, things, and Ideas have opened my eyes to the new. I have been up, down, I have been all over the place.

Meditate, Pray, or just sit and have good intentions

Help us fire up the grid. Sit with us and send loving creative energy along with the rest of us today and help heal the earth and replenish it with our life force. For more info go to www.fireupthegrid.com

Transformers are the SHIT!

God I loved that movie! It is by far the best rendition of a childhood super hero movie to this date in time; and I might have found my future wife. Megan "thats why my last name is" Fox! Wow!!! I freakin love her. Thats all for now. Peace.

The 4th of July aint all its cracked up to be.

Celebrate the nations independence day, by polluting the shit out of the air. The smog is so thick around the city that you cant see 10 feet in front of you.

A Moment of Silence in Memory of Tony Fernandez

Today or yesterday, seeing that its already 12:00am I got the news that one of my friends passed away. My heart and prayers go out to his family and loved ones. The strange thing is that I asked if anyone had seen or heard of him the day he passed away.

You can never say the right words in these types of situations so I will just send out loving kindness to his passing on to the next life. He will be missed, but he is home now.

May he be at peace.
May his heart remain open
May he awaken to the light of his own true nature.
May he be healed.
May he be a source of healing for all.

Rest in peace buddy. Watch over us.

Passed away June 30, 2007

Navigating the Gauntlet

Its been a crazy last 2 months to say the least. Things are in full swing and running smoothly. Life has been life, all encompassing, the ups are up the downs surprisingly are not so down. I have developed this resilient nature and confidence that has gotten me through many storms practically unscathed. My instincts and feelings are in tune with my surroundings. I feel people through great distances, I have attracted the people that I have needed these past couple of months. They have been instrumental on my little odyssey. Its been amazing, and tough all at once but that combination is always worth the hassle because of all the insight and wisdom it brings forth from within ones self. I have accepted things that I thought I never might. I have learned to find the bright spots in all situations. I just want to keep on developing my abilities to serve humanity as best I can.

Shit I am Starving

Whats the deal here man. I got food for my soul, food for thought, food for the damn cat but no food for me!


W/e I need a Nap man.


I have practice today for flag football and probably a damn game but since the dumbass commish does not have a set schedule I am stuck improvising. The good thing is that the parents cant get on my case cause i got a blog set up for schedules and contact info. Its not like I leave them in the dark. Its a great way to cover my ass.

We are three games into the season or should I say three loses into it. The kids practice well enough but once they hit the field they start playing like if they were fathered by Frankenstien. They put on lead boots, they have butter fingers. The only way we managed to score the last game was cuase one of the kids let a ball slip right through his hands, hit of his head and into another kids hands for the touchdown. It was exciting but also a fluke.

One things for sure, I am learning to be more patient.

Lentes de SOL

Si no es eso, que es? Que dices? Que cuentas? Que has hecho?

Lo siento, lo siento todo. Sabias eso?

Estoy connectado sin saber si quiro ser o no.

Es enorme este sentimiento, y que pena da algunas veces.

Que autentico es saber.

Sabes que eh descubierto el infierno.

Esta dentro de mi, de ti, de todos.

La mente es la espada de dobble filo.

Puede ser tu angel de la guardia o tu demonio personal.

Estoy transformando el alma.

Lo que soy yo.

No mi cuerpo.

No mi cerebro.

No mi corazon porques solo son carne.

Lo que soy yo.

Mi conciencia eterna que grita "!CAMBIO!"

Lo que soy yo.

La parte de mi que es conciente que yo existo.

La parte de mi que es conciente que tu existes.

La parte de mi que siempre recuerda de donde vine, que sabe adonde llegare.

La Luz es todo lo que vemos, pero la majoria de la jente usa lentes de sol.

The Ultimate Mirage

First Weekend of June

I had a great weekend, could not have been more fullfilling. Lots of fun in the florida sun. Lakes to fish, kayaks to row, tree swings to hurl us into the depths below.

Refuel, retool, and Reboot.

Pool sports, friends, fam, and fun.

That was my weekend in a nutshell.


This weekend was not so grande for another of of my friends. This friend of mine works at as a manager in a fast food restaurant and had to open on Sunday morning. He recieved a call while there that an employee to be was going to drop of an application there cause he could not make it later on in the day. The person stated that he had spoken with last nights manager; who happened to be the manager that hires new employees. Adrian knowing that thought it was legit and opened the door to find himself held up at gunpoint. The culprit has him move inside towards the managers office, asks for Adrian to give him the money he has and the video tape recording at the moment. He delivered on 1 of the 2 commands, when he gave the robber the money. However the video was being recorded digitaly and could not be accessed by anyone except for the main store manager. The theif then left Adrian in the freezer to wait till he left. The theif also took Adrian's phone and has been calling people a on his list for Adrian's home address so he can "give back" the phone.

So if anyone is on Adrians address book be careful what info you give out.

Poor guy is shaken up a bit but I think he will be ok. He is a resilant one.

Damming up the river.

I almost did it today. I almost obstructed the natural flow. Who am I to do that! It could have caused a significant shift that could have turn out irreparable. Let if flow naturally is the ticket. Let nature take its course. Thank my good friend Davin-Rod who steered me clear of a big mistake.

Carving Out My Niche

Its not surprising to see that people in this day in age are always confused. Shit, I am normally confused for half of my day. I still don't know what I want to do with my life. Where is it that I am going to end up?
It's become obvious to me that we are all one and the same when it comes to where we originate, but that should not be misunderstood to state that everyone is the same and we must all think alike and are going to end up how we hope to end up. Its more along the lines of things happening for a reason regardless of how we feel about them personally. If things are to be, then they will be but they will be on life's terms and not mine, yours or ours.
I don't know why I feels so alive, Actually that's not true, yes I do know or at least I feel I do. I am feel alive because I am alive and I am content and connected to life. I don't feel the need to do something exciting to feel that I am living. I am that feeling, and I bring it with me to all my endeavors. I never thought I would be the person I am today. Never in one hundred years could I envision myself at this point and time to be how I have become. I see now that I have some say in my destiny but like the great plateau's of stone that were once the Grand Canyon, I am exposed and at the mercy of the flow of life. It cuts grooves into my being and helps shape the person that I am becoming. I only hope that when it is all said and done, the final result will be as majestic as the Canyon the Colorado helped shape.

To a friend...

Decisions, decisions, life is full of them. Some are easy and others seem almost impossible to make. I just want you to know that I am here for you and have your best interest in mind. You got a friend in me forever and if you need to talk about it, ask questions, vent, etc don't be hesitant to call. I will be here to help. Like I said to you once, home is where your heart is, so listen to your heart for it will not lead you astray. It is the best thing you can go on when you have reached a cross road in your life and need some guidance. Do what your heart tells you feels right, when you do you will feel that you have made the right choice. Good luck and good journey.


Peace love and elbow grease.

I like to think that I have a strong chin. Most of the punches life has thrown my way are met by my chin. Its always been a bennefit to be able to take the full brunt of somthing and keep going regardless of the negative effects that may come of it. Give it to me straight, my chin can take it! Thats the battle cry I prefer. All the protection in the world is not needed. I am not iron man and I am also no fool. I like things short sweet/unsweet and to the point. Never have been one for long explanations or conversations unless they really grab my attention. I got a shrub trimmer I use to beat the shit out of the bushes around my house.

Shovel sand on me and will just brush it off me and step up like my donkey friend here.

Pochocha!!!!!!!!!!!hahahahahahahahahhaha

I love that word

The worlds a funny place.

Its so, so, SO indescribable! It really is man. People like to describe it as cruel, big, mean, kind, grand, but its such a limiting view of this vast world. Its more like a description of it brought on by how they may be feeling at the moment. It can be all that you feel it to be if people (me included) let themselves blame it for all thier issues. I am alive, somtimes I forget what that feels like with all the responsibility one has on thier shoulder. Then we get a taste of that feeling again and are hooked to getting more. The only problem is that when we cant get more we feel down and out of it. Maybe its just me but i doubt it. I love to feel alive, when you can just be looking out your window and enjoying the sights, smells, sounds, etc of nature. When the sun hits your face and you feel blessed.

Not having that feeling or letting thoughts and emotions get in the way of that awareness of life is a crime or atleast thats what I have come to see it as. I really enjoy feeling alive and I have realized that it is not in what you do (surf, sky dive, white water rafting) but how your mental state is at any given moment. Somtimes thoughts and emotions get to me and create a mental wall that I must fight to break down. But once the Wall falls I can hear lifes calls.

The Draft is over People its time for all us football fans to suffer for a couple months. I guess we could find somthing else and stop sounding like crack addicts but w/e. Football Junkie for life!!!!!!!!!!!!


Anyhow, the cowboys had soso draft. By soso i mean it could end up soso good or soso bad. I really like the Anthony Spencer pick at #1. He is a high motor/intensity guy who plays with great leverage and gets to the football. He will be a very nice bookend to Pro Bowler Demarcus Ware. I also like that we addressed the oline with picks in round 3 and 4, but the best part is our acquistion of clevelands First round pick in next years draft which should be a top 10 pick. That cowboys should do very well this year and maybe land a moster puzzle piece to our super bowl puzzle.

NFL Draft Week 2007

This is the time of year where we football freaks get a cheap tease with the Pro Football Draft. Football season is months away and it is a damn tease i tell you! Well hopefully the Cowboys and a stud to the line up. I am hoping for my boy Reggie Nelson FS for your 2006-2007 National Chompion Florida Gators. He is a ballhawking centerfielder type that I believe would fit perfectly along side Roy Williams. This would allow Terrance Newman a.k.a. (T-New) to shut down his side of the field as he always does and give Anthony Henry a.k.a. the other corner help deep. Henry is a physical corner who excels at bump and is strong in run support but in order to be truly effective he needs saftey help. This is were my boy Reggie a.k.a (Da Eraser) fits in. He has the speed of a corner (4.34 in the 40), leaping ability of a kangaroo, and the hands of a spiderman himself. Plus he lays the hardwood on anyone who dares try and come into his territory. I am crossing my fingers!

THERE IS ALWAYS A LIFE LESSON TO LEARN

What sucks is that I always seem to learn them the hard way. I wonder, am in the minority or the majority? Do most people learn the hard way or do most think ahead and are able to forsee the consequences and set a plan in motion to bypass the hard knocks. The the stereotypical demographics of my surrounding area make me think I am in the majority, but I realize that this is a miniscule sample size so I ask the millions (joke) who read my blog to chime in.

Suspicious Society

I keep on telling people that anyone and everyone is capable of anything and everything given the right mindset. From the nicest of the nice to the meanest of the mean and so on, etcetera etcetera. The atrocities that were committed this week in Blacksburg Virgina on the Virgina Tech campus seem to reinforce my thoughts on the matter. This guy was obviously not right in the head. The line between sane and insane is

What really gets to me is the lack of action not take by the University after the first incident in which the first two victims were killed. How do you go roughly two hours without waring the student body that there is a killer on the loose. Its fucking ridiculous if you ask me. I mean, I would have to live through something like that and actually see if I would do the same or not but I like to think that I would get the word out at the very least.

Unfortunately it seems to me that with no proper action take, the situation was allowed to escalate from what could have been two murders to over 30. No lose of life is ever wished for, but when you look at it by the numbers, 2 is better than 30plus. My heart goes out to the families and friends of the victims as well as the student body and faculty that witnessed this most disturbing of human experiences.

Pin pointing troubled people such as the killer needs to become more efficient and if we are to avoid this type of events from taking place. The warning signs were present and numerous, this event in my eyes should not have happened and is inexcusable.

It makes me wonder how much of this blame falls on society in general. How careless have we gotten? I feel it is our duty to reevaluate the way society has and is shaping our lives as well as its effects on future generations.

Diesel Powered

The NBA playoffs have arrived. Will Wade county be celebrating like the folks in Gainsville or are they destined to fall short to either the Bulls, Cavs, or Pistons. If Heat are rested and D-wade is 85%, I believe we can reach the conference finals versus Detroit were Andre and his boys will be licking their chops at the chance for redemption. If the Heat play like they did when Wade was out they should fare well and reach the championship series.

I am a bit concerned at the fact that since Wades return, the Heat have gone away from the Diesel and have reverted back to watching D-wade work. Shaq needs to be established first so that Miami's slasher and perimeter shooters have open looks. Then Dwayne Wade can just take over and just hammer the lid shut on the opposition as he did last season.

Go Heat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A moment of silence for the lives lost today at Virgina Tech University.

Blacksburg, Va. - A gunman opened fire in a dorm and classroom at Virginia Tech today, killing at least 21 people and wounding 28 in the deadliest campus massacre in U.S. history. The gunman was killed, bringing to death toll to 22, but it was unclear if he was shot by police or took his own life.

May they and their families all be at peace, may thier hearts remain open
May they all awaken to the light of thier own true nation.
May they be healed, may they be a source of healing for all beings

My dream of dreams

To live in a simple ocean front house, with a medium sized boat docked on the dock. I want to live of the land and sea. I want to provide for myself and my family and the lot of animals I will care for. .Be one with the elements, become an element. Surf the seas by day and star gaze by night. Develope a small close knit community of people who truly care for thier neighbors and are characterized as genuine. Its either this or becoming the owner of the dallas cowboys. lol.


Share your dream of dreams.

This pretty much sums it all up for me. I have read many of his works and as I live my life and truely experience things, I start to understand his words, not just intellectually, not just emotionally, but with the insight of which he speaks. This type of stuff get me excited to be alive and to continue on the journy. Remembering that The destination is not what matters, its the journy.

"The core of Krishnamurti's teaching is contained in the statement he made in 1929 when he said: 'Truth is a pathless land'. Man cannot come to it through any organization, through any creed, through any dogma, priest or ritual, not through any philosophic knowledge or psychological technique. He has to find it through the mirror of relationship, through the understanding of the contents of his own mind, through observation and not through intellectual analysis or introspective dissection. Man has built in himself images as a fence of security - religious, political, personal. These manifest as symbols, ideas, beliefs. The burden of these images dominates man's thinking, his relationships and his daily life. These images are the causes of our problems for they divide man from man. His perception of life is shaped by the concepts already established in his mind. The content of his consciousness is his entire existence. This content is common to all humanity. The individuality is the name, the form and superficial culture he acquires from tradition and environment. The uniqueness of man does not lie in the superficial but in complete freedom from the content of his consciousness, which is common to all mankind. So he is not an individual.

Freedom is not a reaction; freedom is not a choice. It is man's pretence that because he has choice he is free. Freedom is pure observation without direction, without fear of punishment and reward. Freedom is without motive; freedom is not at the end of the evolution of man but lies in the first step of his existence. In observation one begins to discover the lack of freedom. Freedom is found in the choiceless awareness of our daily existence and activity. Thought is time. Thought is born of experience and knowledge which are inseparable from time and the past. Time is the psychological enemy of man. Our action is based on knowledge and therefore time, so man is always a slave to the past. Thought is ever-limited and so we live in constant conflict and struggle. There is no psychological evolution.

When man becomes aware of the movement of his own thoughts he will see the division between the thinker and thought, the observer and the observed, the experiencer and the experience. He will discover that this division is an illusion. Then only is there pure observation which is insight without any shadow of the past or of time. This timeless insight brings about a deep radical mutation in the mind.

Total negation is the essence of the positive. When there is negation of all those things that thought has brought about psychologically, only then is there love, which is compassion and intelligence."

You know what I love about life?

No... well guess.

I will give you 5,4,3,2,1

ERRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Times up.

Well I guess you could say there are many things I could and do love about life, but i am focusing on one especially relavent observation.

Its all about the attitude you have.

Bad attitude = more likely than not a bad time.

Good attitude = more likely than not a good time.

Today is not what I call a great day, but I would not know it since I am in a happy mindset.


N E ways,

My friends and I went to the beach on Saturday, man do I need to go more often. The sun, the water, the women! Hot Hot Hot! It was a good time and we actually planned it well, we usually just go and forget everyting, but this time we had all we needed. Here is the basic check list.

1. Towels - check*
2. beach chairs- check
3. Ipod with speakers- check*
   
4. cooler with drinks- check*
5. snacks-check
6. sunscreen-check*
7. Softball equipment**-check

* = essential
** = Inside joke

I also need to get myself some nice shades but other than that i think we got it covered. We are working on getting a little grill as well.

Then we went home, ate and surgically dismanteled some of my friend Adri's friends in basketball.

What does this equall? A hell of a good Saturday.

Its always intresting to me when I read somthing that directly pertains to what I am thinking or feeling. So lets see if you all (yes the hundereds of people that read my blog, lol) find it intresting as well.

Seed for thought

"We can recognize the ego as the part of ourself that lives in our historical past, our story, rather than the present moment. When some one says somthing and we respond way out of proportion to the comment, that's the ego responding from its insecure place of self-importance. As we learn to sidestep the ego, we also learn not to take the bait when some one else's ego challenges us. "


"Its is difficult to see the world with new eyes and to disregard the constant criticisms of our noisy ego. I am tired of the suffering that my judging self causes. "

The came, they won and then won it again!

If you look up team in the dictionary you will find a picture of this UF squad. One of the greates of all time.

Must be twice as nice this time around for Billy D.

Da Godfather is a BEAST!

Noah loves his nets.

Lee for three Humphry

The floor general.

Is it the last we will see of the 04's? I hope not cause I want to see a threepeat!

One game away from history.


Will it be the freshmen led Ohio State team headlined by Mike Conley Jr. and the man child Greg Oden?



Or will it be the Defending National Champs who are looking to cap a dominant showing in NCAA world of sports. My money is on one team, a team that could and should supplant the original fab five as the real fab five.

P.S. Eat your heart out Michigan! I also knocked on wood after writing this.

Will Power, I summon thee!


What the hell is the deal with my will power. On a scale from 1 to 10, ten being the highest, I give myself a 3 which translates into Mierda (shit for the español challenged). Need to find the power to hold fast to my objectives!!! OK, from this moment, (mariana please dont start singing) I am going to Do it. I can effing do It!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Final Four

Well Gators & Gator Haters. We are back in the final four for the second consecutive years, in route to a possible repeat for the NCAA Mens Basketball Championship. If it comes to pass, it would be the first time in 15 years that a team has repeated as national champs. The last to do it was Duke in 91 & 92. I for one cant wait and am going to make the road trip to gainsville if we win. This team has impressed like I have never been impressed. Keep it up Gators.

Gators edge it out against Purdue. Thanks to the 13 straight shots that they made to finish off the game. Al Horford was huge at the end. Got to tip your hat to Purdue, they played thier hearts out, but after all it is a game against the champs, they are resilient and they find the ways to win.

Up next is the sweet sixteen matchup against the number 5 seeded Butler on friday. I think the Gators got a wake up call and will be firing on all cylinders. Go Gators!

March Madness Is Here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Go Gators!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Its definitly one of those days

Where nothing seems to go right, and when something does go right, it still sucks.

I like the picture. Could you imagine seeing this on the news. That would be freaking awesome in a sad kind of way.

The movie 300 made me remeber my childhood in the sense that I had to fight wolves when i was nine. J/k I dreamed about it though. I wana be spartan!!!!!! Those guys rock!!!!!!!!!!!! No not USC just in case some joker decided to comment. W/e I am almost done with work. Yea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The search for truth, is it a valid quest? Is it what we envision it to be? Is it whole hearted endeavor we partake to find our purpose in this world or is it a dillusion in our mind that we create to make us feel like if all our suffering wont be in vain and that there is some form of comfort ahead. What is truth? How can we define it? Who can say that thier definition truly defines the word. How can we KNOW truth?

Most of us adhere to some form of authority (social, spiritual, moral etc.)when it comes to the truth. These institutions of authority lay down their guidelines of how to live and act in order to find the truth they describe. But the question is do people really experience truth in this way? How can they, if they are taking the template from an experienced few and baseing thier morals and ideas around that. It creates a metal image of what they are trying to achieve. Well, my limited experience has taught me that truth is found in the experience. How do you describe the sensations you experience when you go to the ocean without having experienced them. How can you ever know what love is untill you experiences it personally. What is truth as experienced by me is not nessicarily truth to you.

Having made this point, why is it that we look to others experiences on subjects such as religion, society, and morality as guidelines to live by? They can give us the tools needed to experience the truth of what ever matter but we have to actually put for the effort to find our own experience of truth.

Its FRIDAY!!!

Hell yea baby! I love fridays, especially ones where the week has zoomed by and the weekend around the corner is do for a big bash!!! My roomates are leaving out of town and its fiesta (thats means party for all you spanish challeged people) time!!!

Peace

Just another day,

It started out OK and progressed to good. I guess all days are good, it ones attitude that ruins them. You never know what side of the bed your gonna get up from so I have learned to put my best foot forward when dealing with bad attitude on any given day. Enough of that preachy boring shit though.


Yesterday I had my second ass whooping in racquetball. Let me tell you that I definitely do not enjoy getting my ass handed to me in any activity, scrabble included (damn Mari-A-na)! But I will say that I really enjoy playing that game. It is so fast, and reaction time is crucial. Thank whom ever is responsible that I have cat like reflexes or I would be in an even worse situation. Its like dodge ball on roids but I get to slam the poop out of the ball with my stubby racket. The best is when we play doubles but before I describe that let me introduce the participants and background. Every Tuesday and Thursday of the week my cousin Miguel or Michele as i like to call him goes and plays with his two friends at Doral. They have very nice setup there and we exploite it to the max. Exploite sounds so bad but screw it.

I had not played since my long lost memory knows when and decided to partake and ended up being hooked. We started playing doubles and lets just say that the bodies were hitting the floor HARD! Any sport where you are dodgeing bodies and balls, colliding against walls, and slamming the crap out of balls that might or might not end up hitting someone in the (back, head, jewels, ass,) is a great time!

My knees are feeling it today though, I am sore as a w*ore! lol... sorry slipped out.

Gladly today is rest day. I am gona buy some epsom salt, and soak the pain away. Then sit and watch friday nights lights.

PS. Hey Marcy, Mike (Apocalypto) G got a "Volcano" I almost broke my rule on Monday for it but decided against it.

They call him apocalypto at work, guess why?

Weird Dreams May Come

My dreams have been pretty interesting lately, Most of them are a bit too nuts to write about and others just so vague, I remember how I felt very well, but as far as dream recollection is concerned I just blank out. But my pal David had an even crazier dream than any of my combined. He says he was visited by a friend of his that passed away in a motorcycle accident a couple years back. He thinks its cause he as passed by the area of the accident a couple of times this past month. He states that he is sure that he did not dream about him but that he came to visit in his dream. He also said that he asked his friend how heaven was but he forgot most of the dialogue except that his deceased friend told him that he would visit him once a month. Crazy huh...

Anybody have some interesting dreams that they have recently had?

Happy Valentines Day

everybody, but especially a special somebody.

Kill me now man, kill me now. I just don't get it. I just does not register. Its just not comprehensible. I will just leave it up to Spirit. I mean what else is there to do? There are some situations in life that you just don't get a bone thrown your way. Its just those Nolan Ryan type curve balls in the life of a human being. These are the times when you just entrust your life to spirit and have FAITH.

Faith, now that's a word I never really liked. Its a word I never got until I needed to get it. Faith to me was a last resort, that's how I learned it. Not to say that that's how faith is for everyone so don't rip me for it, just in case anyone was. Its just what my experience with it is.

Here's a little background information about me and faith (Faith and I). Faith was a word I could not stand, I guess its cause I did not understand what it meant or how it applied to me. All my life I heard the same the phrase, "You have to have FAITH," after every unanswerable religious question I asked to every person whether it was my mom, grandparents, Sunday school teacher, religion teacher, Marist brother (went to a Marist catholic high school), priest, even George Michael would not shut up about it. I always thought it was bullshit. How the *uck can you have faith in what you don't even know exists! Now I see that that's all you have when all other things have failed.

FAITH, FAITH, FAITH!

I HAVE FAITH!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK MAN.... ITS TAKEN ME 25 YEARS TO REALIZE THAT MYSELF AND THE REST OF US HAVE TO HAVE FAITH IN WHAT EVER YOU THINK ABOUT OR DO IN YOUR LIFE!

I have faith that everything will turn out fine in the end. That's it. Short simple and to the point. You cant evade the bad times cause like my friend Pamplona likes to say and quote (Kahlil Gibran), the bad times make the good times that much better or something along those lines.

The saboteur in all of us.




He lurks in the umbra of our thoughts, conspiring to overthrow the true insights of our soul.
He helps you connive at the selfish egocentric messages brought to light by his small mind.
He whole heartedly tries to convince you that things wont work, not to change, to give up when the going gets tough in order to keep you complacent, cowardly, comfortable and in ignorance as part of the herd.

RECOGNIZE his every whim siblings for he has the power to make man great but also the power to seal his fate.

My favorite type of class

The University of Florida football program is doing it again, as they stand, they are set to bring home the #1 recruting class for 2007. This would bring two straight #1 classes depending on which recruiting site you favor. We currently have commitments from the #5th, 9th, 12th and 28th top national prospects and still have the possibility of landing the #13th and 14th prospect. What does this all mean you ask? Well it means that the Urban revival in Gainsville is in full effect. If there still are any people that doubt Urban Meyer's ability to run a successful program then those people really dont know much about college football. This guy is fantastic when it comes to building a program the right way. He recruits like there is no tommorrow in a state that was formerly domminated by the University of Miami and the other school out in the north west (FSU). This year the fruit of this staffs labor is finally beginning to ripen as the gators domminated the state in recruiting. Our foot is well inside the door, and our cupboards are being stocked like if we shop at Costco.

Its a great time to be a Florida Fan, and just in case anyone was wondering, we are not taking frontrunners into our ranks.

Rediscovering life's path.

There have been times in my life when I felt all was well, where all my thoughts and actions flowed smoothly with the steady river that is the universe. No action could go wrong it seemed, no event seemed out of whack. Just smooth sailing as far as the ego less entity can see. Everything falls into place and the unknown is something that is beheld as exciting and not fearful. I feel as though there is a life path that everyone has laid for them but its not predetermined. Its more like following an Etch a Sketch point, the path behind is visable but the front is not yet determined, all you know is your on the right path and what comes is what you make of it.

The majority of this planets people are so in tuned with their everyday life that rediscovering this so called path is an huge endeavor. People need to match the attributes of "God", my god, their god, what ever they see god as. Like a wise teacher once said, " The Divine is the Sea. All religions are rivers leading to the sea. Some rivers wind a great deal. Why not go to the sea directly?" The label or name that they use for god may be different but its the same Source.

There are 7 attributes

1. Creativity: Creative expression, with out it there is no creation
   
2. Kindness: Acts of kindness extended, received or observed beneficially impacts the physical health and feelings of everyone involved. I know everyone can relate to this.
3. Love: "Love is our Highest word and a synonym for God" Ralph Waldo Emerson
4. Beauty: Beautiful thoughts create a beautiful soul. See beauty in all of Gods creations. A Creative kind, loving source can not create anything that is repulsive to itself.
5. Expansion: Life continues to expand, grow, evolved, thrive. Expanding creativity, kindness, love, and beauty.
6. Unlimited Abundance: It Never stops, endless. We are created by an endless energy (God), We are limitless in our potential. We WILL have all we will ever need and if we have an abundant point of view towards our life. We want to think about the abundance in our life in order to attract more of it. For god only knows abundance. Limited thoughts put a limit on you and create a block that keeps abundance (any type, love, money, etc.)
7. Receptivity: All are welcome, we all come from the same source, there is no exclusion. Being receptive to the endless abundance that is "God."
   

I find that the more I try to live up to these attributes, the more in tuned I feel with everything around me. Things just flow, if I need something and don't know where to start it just finds its way into my life. I love that.


Let spirit express itself through and for you. This leaves no room for Ego.

I will end this with another good qutoe

"The secret to manifesting anything that you desire is your willingness and your ability to realign yourself so that your inner world is in inner harmony with the power of intention" Dr. Wayne Dyer

F.Y.I. By power of intention he means God.

Distant Conversations

I dont know if it is just me or if everyone feels that long distance conversations just dont cut it. I feel so unsatisfied when everything is all said and done. The experience is nowhere near as rich and nourishing as it would be in person and you kind of yearn for that warmth that comes with the face to face, mano a mano experience. It seems so impersonal, so cold, so lackluster, so much like its just buisness, its just how it is type of feeling to it. To sum it all up its just plain old cold shit.

This is not to imply that the person on the other line is this way or makes it that way. Just need to make that CLEAR... I dont know enough about how it makes me feel, I could sit here and just think of words to express the sentiment that comes over me when I am dealing with the topic that we speack of. I am usually doing my best to keep myself upbeat about all things in my life but somthing I feel must be expressed if only to ease the discomfort.

Peace and love to all.

2006-2007 NATIONAL CHAMPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What! What was that! 82 TOTAL YARDS you say!!! OHIO STATE...THE Ohio State!?!?!?! It cant be, It couldnt be, IT IS Gator Hators!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Scoring Summary

FIRST QUARTER FLA OSU

TD 14:44 TED GINN JR. 93 YD KICK RETURN (AARON PETTREY KICK) 0 7

TD 10:31 DALLAS BAKER 14 YD PASS FROM CHRIS LEAK (CHRIS HETLAND KICK) Drive info: 7 plays, 46 yards. 7 7

TD 5:51 PERCY HARVIN 4 YD RUN (CHRIS HETLAND KICK) Drive info: 5 plays, 34 yards. 14 7

SECOND QUARTER FLA OSU

TD 14:56 DESHAWN WYNN 2 YD RUN (CHRIS HETLAND KICK) Drive info: 10 plays, 71 yards. 21 7

TD 13:32 ANTONIO PITTMAN 18 YD RUN (AARON PETTREY KICK) Drive info: 4 plays, 64 yards. 21 14
-------POINT OF NO RETURN FOR Overrated State University (OSU)------------------------------

FG 6:00 CHRIS HETLAND 42 YD FG Drive info: 9 plays, 32 yards. 24 14
FG 1:53 CHRIS HETLAND 40 YD FG Drive info: 4 plays, 6 yards. 27 14

TD 0:23 ANDRE CALDWELL 1 YD PASS FROM TIM TEBOW (CHRIS HETLAND KICK) Drive info: 3 plays, 5 yards. 34 14

FOURTH QUARTER FLA OSU

TD 10:20 TIM TEBOW 1 YD RUN (CHRIS HETLAND KICK) Drive info: 8 plays, 39 yards. 41 14